ya i admit i luv money.. grin.. BUT i dun cheat money.. i cant stand ppl hu cheat other ppl's money.. n i dun lyk ppl hu bu lao er huo.. nv work but claim the pay.. i look down on these kind of ppl.. no integrity.. the least some1 can do is to b honest.. but some ppl cant even hv tt basic integrity.. if its 1 or 2 hrs den suan le.. but is ONE WHOLE DAY!!!! haiz.. dun say le la..
n juz cuz u helped others once dun mean u're willing to b taken advantage of.. help u once is hao xing.. help u twice is hao yi.. but dun de cun jin chi.. do tings onli in ur favour.. pls, b a nicer person.. u're getting uglier.. dun tink help ppl raise abit of money den considered doing gd liaoz.. no lo.. being a gd person is not juz abt tis.. juz lyk those da jian da e de ren, but donate ALOT of money.. it dun mean anithing.. u're stil a lousy person..
okie.. dun say liaoz..

hmz read june's blog.. erm june ar.. no nid too sad la.. hafta get used to it.. cuz commandos is lidat 1.. others hv standard book out timing they dun hv 1.. others can call every nite they cnt.. aft POP others got 1 week break they dun hv.. if ur bf got 24 hrs out of camp oredi veh not bad liao lo.. n lyk u said, phone will kana confiscated 1.. cuz alot of ppl use secretly ma, den they will gan cui confiscate the phone.. n sometimes they say book out in afternoon, den alot of times become 3++, 4.. muz xi guan la.. den alot of times their weekend will burn off 1 day den compensate on monday.. hmz luckily u not working liaoz, else gotta tk off so mafan.. now still okie la.. BCT more siong, for them.. but for you, the days will get better.. trust me.. *winkx*

haiz.. i sound so naggy.. okie i'm not a pro.. but i've definitely become alot more patient aft dear dear enlist..
miss my dear dear too.. he say can book out on fri.. hopefully its true.. sat gotta book in for live firing.. sun out agn.. so mafan.. =/
shld i tk off on fri? erm half day off?? c 1st ba.. duno when will he b back frm outfield.. miss my dear dear..

i hate ulcers.. cant even eat properly.. last nite forgot to put the powder for ulcer.. hurts!!! okie muz rem to put the powder for ulcer tonight..
*ouCh*

+ [A]nGe| @ 13:50

took out my pen n starting writing the letter for my dear dear.. felt quite bad cuz ain't reali writing much nowadays.. fone rang.. PS msg me.. so i put down my pen n replied to her.. suddenly, my surroundings fell into total darkness.. *OI!!!!!* went ard my area.. POWER FAILURE!!! tt last time a massive power failure occured, i was slping le.. tis time i'm wide awake!!!

daddy jumped out of bed when i shouted: "ting dian ar!!!" mommy's not home yet.. daddy wana go fetch her.. so we went to look for a torch.. erm my hse ain't reali popular for owning torches tt r workable.. so i shouted: "kor ar!! torch!!" haha cuz army ma.. sure gt torch one.. my 2nd kor now reservice.. else my hse wil hv 2 torches liaoz.. haha so in the end my dad took the torch n went to fetch my mommy..

called loo, told her my hse power failure.. n she went: "haha my hse here dun hv" -_-" den she tell me now she veh scared.. ltr oso suddenly power failure.. den i called irene.. n her response was: "orh.. okie.." -_-''' her response is SO.. EXCITING.. haha anyway halfway thru our conversation PS replied me.. her hse osopower failure!! so she stil has physics paper tml!!! haha she wana die liaoz.. so i hang up the fone wif irene n called her.. her mom prepared lots of candle lights for her.. muahahaha.. she beta pray 'A's period dun hv power failure..

farnie ting is my hse area some blocks kana, some blocks nv.. the 1 opp my hse dun hv!! but most of them power failure too..
looked out of my window n tot to myself tt its actually a veh nice sight.. still tinking of taking the cam n tk down the foto..
den saw opp blocks the lights came back!! AIYA!! missed out the sight of all the lights coming back!!!!!!!!! but anyway i shouted to my parents power's back.. blackout onli lasted 30mins..

tink those ppl living at punggol area reali die ar, if they've papers tml.. their power failure lasted 2hrs!!! haha if is PS she sure wana die.. cnt study..

came to work tis morning.. realised all my colleagues standing outside the door.. locked out!! tink last nite's power failure affected the company oso.. the main door cnt open.. so mark opened the door leading to technical room.. SO COOL!! haha den we walked in thru technical room lo.. nearly forgot to sign in ar.. keke

n i had to buy the standard ticket tis morning for train travel!! cuz the student concession card expired!!!! end of june liaoz.. so farnie.. was still tinking, siao la!! how to travel?? tot wat happened lo.. den walk to the machine there n insert my card.. den it states tt my card expire liaoz.. super sian.. sent out SMS to warn all my frens.. hmz my dear dear oso still using the student ezlink card.. tink oso muz warn him liaoz.. hee mabbe i'll 'gope' my dad's ezlink.. juz another mth to go.. i dun wana waste $$ buying another ezlink card..

tis is a long entry.. haiz back to work..

+ [A]nGe| @ 08:47

went out wif yolk chee, pegg, jo n another gal yday.. all frm swiss, but i dun reali noe the other gal.. haha.. was fun la.. pegg dragged me along.. din wana go initially cuz lazy.. n wasn't prepared to go out.. but jo said: "if xuan go i go" -_-" no choice.. go ba.. turned out to b quite fun actually.. cuz haven seen yolk chee for a veh long time.. hee we used to b so close sia.. hee but its nice to feel the closeness though we haven seen each other for so long.. kinda missed her.. at 1st i tot it'll b farnie, the feeling.. but it turned out okie la..

n jo.. haha haven seen her in ages too.. veh got nu ren wei now.. tink its mainly cuz she's working n ppl getting married soon le lo.. shld b either end of tis yr or beginning nez yr.. tt time she still tell me she wun b getting married so fast.. will wait till we grad.. haha but now, she's getting married soon le!! feeling happi for her la.. seeing my fren settle down.. but she's moving to sengkang.. veh far!!!! wana meet her oso mafan la.. but i'll surely miss her.. haha nez time she gt child le i wana b the godmother!! actually i tink 19 get married is not too young.. den u'll b a young mother ma.. imagine getting married at ard 28, den by the time u hv a child oredi 30 le.. gao ling chan fu liaoz.. haha okie i tink too much.. i shld belong to the latter la.. getting married @ 28.. -_-"
i shld start saving for her red packet le.. haha

mabbe i'll b meeting yolk chee, go her hse swimming tis sat! but nth is cnf.. i will contact her agn tis fri.. hee she wana go tanning!!! yolk chee!! tanning!! she's SO FAIR LO!!! tan le lyk no tan lidat.. haha den i keep suan-ing her abt how she wun b able to gt a tan 1.. haha okie i shall stop suan-ing her.. i sound so mean..

i've a premonition tt i'll b getting the sack soon.. okie mabbe i shldn't say tt.. i dun tink he'll need my help anymore.. cuz me n pegg now working as MSCSR ma.. but there's nth to do nowadays le.. n joseph mentioned b4 tt they onli need 1 MSCSR.. so mabbe i wun b working in july.. MABBE LA!! nth's cnf.. wana ask joseph abt it yday 1.. but yday he's on MC.. so juz now i went up to him n ask him abt it.. as in, he nid my help till when la.. den he say he'll come to me ltr.. tink he's bz ba..so wait lo..

actually dun work le oso gd.. though no income, but i can hv more time to myself.. n my frens, n my family lo.. mabbe i'll gt a part time job lo.. somewhere near my hse.. den i can work abit, slack abit.. no nid 9-6 everyday.. abt tuition, i stil waiting lo.. looking for a long term tuition job tts near my hse.. i dun wana waste time travelling lo..

hmz joseph ar!! hurry up tell me abt it la.. cuz tml's the last day of june liaoz.. if u dun nid me to work in july den i gotta start packing my stuff liaoz.. i dun wana wait til tml den pack.. troublesome.. haha

i tink some guys r juz born to b jerks.. n i tink some gals dun deserve to b bullied by them.. n those jerks shld juz leave them alone!! dun bring them trouble.. they dun deserve to b treated lyk this.. so SCRAM OFF!!!!! dun lemme c u.. i beat u up everytime i c u.. u BIG FAT JERK!!!!!

+ [A]nGe| @ 09:13

ppl in my workplace stil tinks i'm a young lil gal.. okie mabbe in another sense i still am a xiao mei mei, vulnerable to the cruelty of the real working world..
but few noes wat i've been tru back in sec sch.. ya i noe i've been repeating tis since duno when n some r juz tired of the same speech over n over agn..
but tts real painful experience i had back den.. forced to grow up n face the reality of the outside world..
ppl backstab each other.. act lyk gd colleagues.. but in reality they step on u to climb higher.. mk use of u to climb to greater power.. seen all too many oredi..
danny n pher were toking abt a particular some1 whom they refused to divulge hu izit.. hmz i TINK i mite hv an idea of hu izit.. i TINK la..

some ppl, reali sux.. alwiz tinking tt they're more superior, smarter.. looking down on others.. tt kind of ppl, i hate most.. trying to climb to higher power, n in the process, made use of other ppl.. act as if they're the best in the world.. i used to tink danny is veh inefficient in his work.. but actually he's a nice person, n i tink tts wat tt counts.. if u're a damn efficient person wif a lousy n damn yucky personality, den i tink u're a failure..

-shRugx- i wana stay in sch forever.. dun wana face the working world.. so much cruelty.. devoids some ppl of their human conscious.. slowly devouring their kind nature.. i wana stay in the technical room!! i dun wan go out!! i dun wana face the ppl out there n guessing whether r they truly nice or juz putting on false front??
okie i tink too much.. i'm juz a temp staff.. geez..

+ [A]nGe| @ 14:50

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+ [A]nGe| @ 12:33

i tink i'm so nice when i'm not having mood swings..
went hendon to fetch my dear dear yday.. was deciding whether i shld go KTV wif my mom n her frens or go hendon wait for dear dear.. aft a short discussion wif irene i decided to mk the trip down to hendon, aft staying for half hr in the KTV room.. hmz once in a while do sth nice for dearie ba.. hee but i waited for almost 2 hrs.. =/ they had a spot check juz b4 book out.. there's a thief among them.. though they noe hu izit, but they've no proof.. bobian.. let him xiao yao fa wai.. irritating.. mk me wait so long somemore..
i rem when i was in J1 i waited for 1hr n went off in a huff.. haha comparing me then n now, i'm so much more patient.. wait till i xi guan oredi.. muahaha..

erm ya as i was saying, JJ's tings kana stolen.. long story.. lazy to type.. but dear's locker's lock was damaged as well, but nth stolen.. *thank god* he will go n kill himself if his fone is lost ar.. he used up 2/3 of his pay to buy the fone 1 ar.. n its not even 1 mth old.. hmz shan't say too much.. haha anyway JJ got his fone back.. long story oso.. lazy to type..

erm went swimming today.. TOO MANY kids.. i gaf up trying to swim aft 3.5 laps.. i hate trying to avoid kicking the kids down there..
though i reali LUV kids.. i feel lyk killing some today..
my grand-niece.. *=/ i sound so old* my aunt brought her here today.. n SHE WRECK MY TINGS!!!! went into my room when i'm not ard n mess up my stuff!! the box tt RZ gimme for the earrings when he went aust.. she tore off the ribbon!!! n the heart tt PS did during vday laz yr, she broke it too!!! n my papers in the baci choc!!! she crumpled them!!!!! luckily she din break the earrings i left on top of the drawers.. was so damn pissed off when i reach hm.. i cant find my tings n saw all the broken + crumpled stuff.. knew muz b some little kid.. n muz b my aunt's great grand children.. IRRITATING!!!! but, i shall b nice.. i shall not b angry at the kids.. but nez time, when u bring little kids out, PLS LOOK AFT THEM!!!!! some tings $$ cant buy..
n those kids at the swimming pool.. juz jump into the pool lidat... PLS LA!!! its so dangerous lo..

haiz.. no mood type liaoz..
go slp le.. nitez..
hope my dear dear'll b fine in camp.. nth serious will happen.. n tt he can finally hv some peachful days.. no more incidents to happen.. stay safe n sound.. health more impt.. *worried*

+ [A]nGe| @ 22:21

i believe i'm mentioned b4 how much i HATE weichen!!!!!! YESH!!! I HATE HIM!!!!!!! tt irritating big a** hole.. n did i mention b4 tt i've limited vocab in vulgar languages??? but for him.. i will increase my vocab!!!!! IRRITATING BIG FAT STUPID ARSE HOLE!!!!!! I HOPE U ROT TO DEATH!!!!! all those ants crawling on u when u SLP!!!!!!!!! GO DIE!!!!!!! HATE U!!!!!!!!
cant he hv a beta attitude when he tok?? if u cant, den i WUN GIF U FACE EITHER!!!!!! I SHALL IGNORE U!!!!!!!!!! I DUN WAN TOK TO U!!!!!! GO TO HELL!!!!!!!!!! ur wife muz b BLIND to marry u!!!!!!! oh no.. mabbe she's juz being super kind hearted.. BTH!!!!!!!!!!

it's bad luck to c u early in the morning!!!! the worst ting tt can happen to me is u toking to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dun wan tokto u!!!!!!! GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!

i juz hate him.. juz the way i dun lyk alan.. its the SAME feeling.. but.. i tink even alan's beta den him!!!!!!!! HE'S THE WORST!!!!!!!

+ [A]nGe| @ 12:26

haiz so poor ting.. today he's gg outfield.. erm not reali field camp la.. topo @ mandai.. today n tml.. *oops m i disclosing too much army stuff here?? geez* hope he's coping fine.. no injuries, no sprains, no nth.. juz come back safe n sound.. *pRayz* he's been suffering frm too much injuries recently le.. mabbe i shld bring him go bugis bai bai tis weekend.. haha i sound so auntie!!!!!!!! oh mi gosh..
*dear dear u muz tk care leh*

nth much gg on recently.. except tt pegg seems REALI serious abt putting up an item on swiss sjab anniversary dinner.. *penGx* n as her dance partner, seems lyk i gotta go along wif her.. ya, i do luv to dance, but dancing @ tis kinda event is a TOTALLY diff ting!!!! okie i shall wait n c how tings go ba..

hmz waiting for irene to wake up, go for tuition den cum hm.. cuz i need her to b online den i can gt my template!!!! haha so exciting.. cuz i believe it'll b so damn nice.. den do sum editing myself n TADA!! my blog wil b done! so.. NU ER!!! KUAI ONLINE BA!!! haha online le gimme a msg den i online.. feel lyk changing the cursor of the new blog.. tink it doesn't fit in.. n i oredi hv tt cursor on another blog le.. hmz i shall c how ltr.. tis blog needs LOTSA editing.. soi tink i wun b changing template anytime sooner aft i change to the yuna template!! SO EXCITING!!!!!
okie i'm gg crazy agn.. nth to do, as usual..

+ [A]nGe| @ 09:20

the reason y i changed my template yday was cuz i wana let irene c how bad the template was.. haha the person who wrote tt template is real bad at it.. alot of errors ar.. i oredi edited some myself.. but the rest i BLURZZZZZ le.. so, thx, my dear nu er!!! help me edit my template.. keke alwiz feel so bad to ask her help me.. use awhile den change the template le.. geez.. but she say nvm!! cuz her own templates oso lidat!!

hmz wat did i wana say? went swimming yday.. my dear mommy fly my plane.. tell me she'll pei me go swimming yday 1.. in the end when i reach hm she tell me she juz went to beauty salon to wash her face, den she dun wan go!!!!!! wat the.. still dare tell me she originally called to book appt for today 1.. den the beautician tell her now no1 down there, ask her whether she wana go anot.. N SHE WENT DOWN!!!!! -_-" sianz.. went myself in the end.. suan le la i prefer go alone anyway.. no pressure.. juz tt i needa ALOT of determination if i go myself.. keke din swim alot of laps though.. paiseh.. keke

though i exercised, stil feel FAT.. haiz.. no choice la.. SO long nv exercise le.. muz reali mk it a pt to exercise more frequently.. lyk go jogging every twice a week.. swimming once a week.. lidat den wil keep fit!! dun gif dear dear a reason to say i fat.. grinz..

hmz work not so sianz nowadays le.. cuz gt tings to do.. mabbe i shld try and edit the template myself.. but stil nid irene's help.. cuz she noe ALOT more den i do.. IRENE!!! KUAI HUI JIA BA!!! muahahahahaha...

miss my dear dear loads n loads.. duno how he's been.. tell me he sprained his ankle yday while running the 9k SOC.. poor ting.. he's SO full of injuries.. duno when can he eva hv a short rest?? to let all his injuries recover 1st.. HAIZ.. feeling so xin tong.. dear dear ar.. muz tk care la..
miss u...

+ [A]nGe| @ 13:23

i wana change my blog template agn.. haha abit sianz of tis template liaoz.. cuz it wasn't THAT nice in the beginning.. though i reali lyk the anime.. but.. hmz wait til i'm down agn ba! den i'll change.. lidat den i'll feel beta.. grinz..

i had a gd nice slp!! haha oso duno y.. juz feel tt i had a veh gd slp laz nite.. weather was okie, not too hot, not too cold.. n i slept all the way till dawn.. so nice feeling.. but i guess the fact tt i was damn tired contributed to my gd rest laz nite..

it hurts to climb the stairs now.. every step i walk up/down the stairs HURTS!!! was gg *ouch! ouch!* all the way along the flight of stairs down frm the mrt platform.. =/ i reali haven been exercising for so long..
which is y.. i'm planning to.. GO SWIMMING TODAY!!
i'm gg crazy over the 'i'm growing fat' thingy..

stayed till 9 at work yday.. n today i reached @ 835.. i spent less den 12 hrs away frm tis office yday.. =/ feel so workaholic.. n i suffered many paper cuts on my hand.. so kelian.. lemme count.. tink there's 5.. i cnt do paper work la.. sure kana paper cut 1..

duno whether can go lot 1 shopping when i go swimming ltr anot? hope my mommy's gg.. haha all expenses covered! grinz..
dear dear say i'm a money grub.. hey!! no lo.. i juz lyk to save $$ tts all.. n the reason i stayed behind yday to work is not for the $$ la!! is cuz i wan a few hrs off today to rest n enjoy.. i dun wan everyday to b the standard 9-6.. so sianz..

+ [A]nGe| @ 08:53

haha went jogging early in the morning.. woke up @ 6.. *yawnz* haha asked dear dear wake me up early in the morning.. hee was dreaming abt him 1 leh.. den suddenly my fone rang n is him.. keke at 1st i veh lazy pick up the call 1.. so let it become a missed cal.. haha picked up the call in the end la.. den i told him.. "dear dear ar.. i was dreaming of u leh.. den u call me liaoz.." muahahaha!!!! den i washed up n stuff.. borrowed my bro's watch n went jogging!! haha i simply luv to jog b4 the sun comes up.. cuz i alwiz feel tt the air's fresher b4 sunrise.. aft tt all the cars start gg onto the road, den the air not so fresh le..
i jogged consecutively for 20 mins!!! haha i feel so fit.. cuz recently feel tt i'm getting fatter n fatter.. den now i feel so much fitter.. cuz if i run wif dear dear den normally i wun run much.. oso duno y..

but reach hm den 7 oredi.. rest a short while den gotta hurry go bathe cuz needa leave the hse @ 750 le.. eh bathed n stuff, but stil let my dad wait awhile b4 i can leave.. feel so paiseh.. haha but though my legs veh suan, i feel energized overall!!! haha

mabbe gotta work OT today.. but can come in later tml.. or if preferably, leave earlier tml.. keke cuz i dun lyk the idea of gg to work ltr.. i'd rather leave earlier.. haha!! c how ba.. if i leave earlier, den hopefully can meet up wif irene they all or sth lidat.. or mabbe i can go exercise agn tml!! haha.. c how ba.. not cnf yet..

had a gd start today.. grinz.. today's gonna b a gd day!

btw did i mention tt i met jeffrey on sat? yupz i met him! cuz me n dear dear took 171 frm yishun, den alighted @ the stop opp plaza.. saw tis NS guy(u noe, the prominent hairstyle) @ the busstop.. but din strike me as familiar.. den alighted the bus le, dear dear went to throw sth.. walked past the guy.. den heard some 1 call "kim".. turned ard n saw tt its the guy i noticed.. den i turned back.. den dear said "eh, jeffrey", n i turned back n said "eh JEFFREY!!" haha super slow reaction.. den chatted awhile lo.. loo called me @ nite n said jeff msg her, told her he saw me.. haha!! farnie.. n aft we parted den i realised we forgot to ask for his no.. =/ suan le la.. loo has it..

+ [A]nGe| @ 09:22

yday was a super long day.. had lotsa tings to do..
went back to SA to collect cert, n dear dear's cert oso.. den went down to tamp to fetch my dear dear..

left the hse early in the morning.. woke up kinda late, so had to rush.. woke up at 845, washed up, den pia downstairs buy tings.. den came back n i bathed.. erm i bathed super long la, so it contributed to the fact y i was so rushed.. geez.. ate breakfast @ 10, changed, packed my bag n rushed out of the hse @ 1050.. took 188 den change 97 to go SA.. reached SA @ 1145.. *phew* glad i made it in time to collect da certs.. hee though the staff lyk abit bu shuang.. but.. lyk i care!! haha

took 100 go down to city hall tk train to tamp.. decided since i was in city hall, i shall go visit my anthony kor.. IRENE!! HEAR THAT?!! i went to find anthony.. chatted quite awhile.. eh realised he owns a bike.. den i psycho him to sell his bike, say its dangerous.. tell him dun ride le.. haiz but anyway i juz tell him to b more xiao xin when he's riding la.. dun gt into accidents.. hee den he say he's applying to go airforce.. hmz quite cool.. hee hope his application is successful..

went tamp, den bought a shirt for my dad.. but i lost it!! made a fone call n left it at the fone booth.. den by the time i realised it we oredi board the bus.. n tt bus's 1st stop is all the way at yishun.. i wana die liao.. den we called ben (frm commando) n asked if he can help.. feel abit bad cuz hai him drove back to TM all the way frm hougang.. but stil cnt find it.. in the end i went northpoint n bought another 1.. dear dear helped to pay abit cuz he feels bad, lyk hai me lose the shirt lidat.. but no la its my fault la.. but the 2nd shirt i bought is nicer la, i feel.. so suan le lo.. its a prezzie for my dad ma..

den went my dear dear's hse.. had dinner at his place.. haha so his mom oso mix brown rice wif white rice 1.. same as pegg's mom!! haha realised so mani ppl ard me eat brown rice recently.. heh realised tt pegg n brennie r pri sch frens!!! hmz if my dear dear nv stay wif his granny den tink he will b her pri sch mate as well.. hahaha the world is SHOOOOO small...

saw a newspaper cutting on the table juz now.. SWISS SJAB ANNIVERSARY DINNER!!! my bro cut 1!!! i tink he's planning to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG.. i tot he'l nv go leh.. den i nv tot of asking him oso.. until i saw the newspaper cutting.. geez.. i tink it'll b cool to go wif my bro!! haha SO COOL!!!!! i hope he goes.. hahahahahahahahaha.. WHEE!!! so happi!!!! anyway its on 7th aug @ 1900hrs @ apollo novotel singapore - venue room lvl 3.. swiss sjab ppl interested to go can contact me!

duno wat i'm gonna do today.. sianz day.. dun feel lyk gg out.. super hot day..
ppl r ALL psycho-ing me to quit.. tell me to enjoy myself b4 i go uni.. stil considering..
juz changed my shampoo.. my hair's beta lo!! haha

+ [A]nGe| @ 12:09

haha went out wif xiang, rene n loo today cuz its loo bday!!!!! haha so as usual we treated her to dinner.. @ fei cui la mian xiao long bao.. hee tink its a grt idea to meet up for a meal on the person's bday.. cuz prez juz ain't the same as meeting up for dinner n a nice chat.. yesh the 4 of us agree tt its grt how the few of us r stil so close aft all these yrs.. n i'm truly greatful for the few of them.. tt i met them.. haha.. I LURVE U GALS!!! WE ROX!!! haha..

had a hell of a time.. laughing out n getting away frm the usual boring life.. its rox to go out wif them.. n i noe tt i can alwiz count on them when i'm down.. n how we dun hafta pretend in front of each other but juz b ourselves.. cuz we've seen the ugliest side of each other oredi.. haha!! so there's basically no secrets liaoz.. how we're stil so close aft so mani yrs.. hmz 10? haha me n irene were laffing when i told her "10 yrs ago, u were.....(blah blah blah)" n we burst out laffing.. its amazing man..

well it was grt fun hanging out wif them.. n how hilarious was the short stay in the washroom.. xiang was pissed wif how obsessed me n rene were wif the mirror in the washroom while loo was spending a super long time trying to fix the s***.. haha!!!! guess onli the 4 of us noe wat izit abt.. den we were helping her to peel off the s***.. haha!!!!!!! den xiang say ltr she walk den behind will snow1.. =/ she's a grt joker lahz..

walked to cine n i bought the bag!!!!! the 1 i've been tinking abt for the past 3 weeks!!! haha xiang was lyk.. "u sure u wana buy anot? its half a day's pay leh.." den i told her "but wo yi jing xiang le san ge xing qi le" =/ den she nth to say liaoz! haha cuz she say 3 weeks' pay is enuff for the bag le.. haha!!! luckily i bought.. cuz its the laz piece.. den irene bought a similar bag wif me!! haha den nez time we go out can bring tgt!! loo oso bought.. but she bought another kind.. cuz the kind we wana buy, harn n gang r planning to buy for her le.. project shop 1.. WHEE!!!!!!! i so happi!! cuz we met up for dinner n i bought THE bag!!!! haha den irene say we shld buy a badge n clip on the bag tgt.. the 4 of us.. hee mabbe we shld.. we'll b meeting up in 3 weeks' time.. irene's bday..

gotta go back SA tml.. to tk the A lvl cert.. super sianz.. abit regret nv go back tk during my lunch hr.. cuz SA n SiS is quite near onli.. but suan le la.. its over lo!! gg back tml.. haiz i hope time passes n i can go gai gai tml agn!! but dun tink i'll b spending $$ agn le.. cuz i juz bought the bag.. so even if i wana do anithing to my hair, i'll wait til aft pay day ba? den for now, i'll juz change my shampoo 1st n c how tings go ba..

n loo saw anthony at club rouch.. the bash tt she's gg.. n we were stil saying we wana go find him aft we went cine.. den when irene alighted the bus, loo call her n say she say anthony at the bash.. =/ such a big coincidence..

+ [A]nGe| @ 23:41

saw tis on the classified ads tt day..
"exercising and writing in a journel helps PMS"
tts not the exact words though.. sth lyk tt sort la..
guess writing in a blog is supposed to help PMS too?? not tt mine's here though.. =/
i'm falling into depression, i realised.. VEH serious... i'm dyyyyyyyying... i feel lyk dyyyyyyingggggg... SOME1 HELP!!!

was on way hm on wed.. say weeyang!!! OMG i dun reali wana c him ya? cuz i haven seen him for a VEH long time n i wun noe wat to say to him.. so by natural instincts i'll wana avoid him.. n i wasn't wearing my specs so i ain't sure its him.. but he has features tt one of a kind.. so i dun tink i'll b mistaken.. alighted frm LRT, n i realised he alighted too!!! not a surprise though.. he lives pretty near me.. when i saw him he was quite far away frm me.. but soon aft i was walking towards the gate, i FELT some1 was walking juz behind me.. creeeeeeeeepy..... its those kind if u turn ard n u'll bump into him tt kind.. so i walked super fast, act lyk i'm in a hurry.. but all the way down frm the mama shop til the bball court there some1 is walking JUZ BEHIND ME!!!! HELP!!!! n i cant turn ard cuz i'll knock into him!! SO CREEPY!!! den i juz carry on walking super fast n hope he'll leave me alone.. tink he recognize me, but not sure whether izit reali me, so dun dare tok to me.. ttz JUZ SO weeyang.. soon aft tt he turned n walked in another direction.. wheeu i dun wan some1 walking juz behind me all the way hm.. i'll freak out.. haha

on the way to work tis morning.. was standing beside tis pretty cute guy.. *grinz* den realised he alighting at redhill too!! but i went down the platform via stairs whereas he went down via escalator.. so i din c him aft tt.. hee n standing opp me on the train was a guy wif this 'say' tt reminds me of andy!! haha ANDY!! I REM U!!! keke abt his height, carry a sling bag, put 1 hand inside the pocket, 1 hand holding the handgrip, oso wif short short hair..

dreamt of eileen chuah laz nite!! hmz dreamt tt she's married(though she's stil 21), den we were back at swiss.. saw her n her husband, den she came n find me.. we were lying down at the quadrangle chatting.. den saw the sec1s running along the corridor ard the quadrangle.. u noe along the CO room den towards the technical rooms den sci labs den to the canteen there.. we were shouting at them, tell them run faster.. n i told her lyk veh rude, lying down n shouting at them.. so we stood up..
den my dad woke me up.. =/
i miss swiss sjab.. it used to b my 2nd home.. HAIZ..

i noe guys r gonna scold me agn.. but i tink NS is cool.. if given a chance, i'll wana go NS.. 1 in a lifetime experience.. how many ppl can do tt? gg on a helicopter, repelling frm helicopter.. gg into the jungle n learning survival skills.. haiz i hope to go tru all tt too.. though it mite b tough, but at the end of the day, u can proudly tell urself tt u survived all tt.. 20 yrs down the road those will b memorable times.. okie mabbe u dun nid 20 yrs to start missing the days.. tink 10yrs is enuff..
treausre the times u're in NS ba, guys.. working life SUX..

though my life is SIAN N BORING.. but i'm glad i stil hv tings to write in the blog.. haha cuz it helps PMS.. (i'm not suffering frm PMS now la!!) *lame*
i shld blog more often..

HAPPI BIRTHDAY, LOO!!!!!!!

+ [A]nGe| @ 09:07

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+ [A]nGe| @ 14:29

life is so boring nowadays.. even gg work oso so sianz.. NTH TO DO!!!! nth to do at work = sianz.. got tings to do at work oso = sianz.. so basically life is juz sian n boring ya? haha i'm so difiicult to please.. no choice.. life IS sianz wat..

i wana stop working n go shopping everyday!! but no work=no $$.. how to shop?? haha so basically i gotta carry on working till i start sch ya? SIANZ.. every1's asking me y i stil wana work when sch'd gonna reopen? cuz i nid the $$ ya? when i start sch, i wun b able to work anymore wat? i'll nid the $$ to support myself.. hmz gotta go back to scrimping n saving up my $$!! *hmz ain't i oredi doin it?* haha!! i'm crazy..

i've NTH TO DO!! haiz planning whether i shld stop work 1 week earlier.. quit wif pegg.. since 1 week ltr i gotta go back to sch.. but m deciding against it.. cuz tt'll mean a few hundred bucks less.. n i nid the $$!!!

did i mention i'm growing fatter? yupz i M!!!! i can c all the fats on my body oredi.. n i can FEEL that i'm growing fatter.. sianz.. i wana rebond my hair! i wana gt contacts! i wana buy bag! i wana buy clothes! i wana change my hp! i wana go tanning! i wana go gym!! i wana SLIM DOWN!!!! haiz pathetic me..
okie i dun tink i'll do any of tt cuz as usual, i'm alwiz she bu de part wif my $$!! haha i'm SO STINGY!!!!!!!

i wana rebond my hair.. 1 of these days i'm gonna gt it done.. n i wana change shampoo.. is dove gd? cuz i seriously tink my hair needs moisture.. ITS SO SUCKY!!!!
okie i'm acting bitchy here.. who cares....

i'm so sianz.......

+ [A]nGe| @ 13:17

haiz life's BORING.. seriously i outta look for some excitement in life n sth meaningful to do.. everyday's THE SAME!!! i'm SO SICK OF IT!!! haha i'm being crazy agn as usual.. haha.. onli weekends r slightly more exciting.. sounds pathetic rite? NTH TO LOOK FORWARD TO!!! LIFE'S PATHETIC!! okie i can look forward to sats.. i dun look forward to sun, cuz dear dear needa book in on sun.. *grinz*

i cooked today!!! well i wun call tt cooking la.. cuz i din reali do anithing lo... as in, no big fuss n stuff.. juz simple crepes.. n dear dear's whole family ate it! n JJ.. did i mention we invited JJ over for dinner?? haha tink he reali enjoys coming to his hse.. tink he's the onli son.. no1 pei him play at hm ya? poor ting.. now i suddenly realise i'm SHO LUCKY!!! THX DADDY MOMMY!!!!! N KOR KORS.. I LURVE ALL OF YOU!!!!
tink though i alwiz complain i dun hv much freedom n tt i dun hv a sis.. i'm reali glad to hv such a wonderful family.. cuz i reali enjoy the bliss of having a family.. they care for me, n i do too!! though we dun reali tok much when at hm, but i noe tt whenever i nid help they'll alwiz b there!!

oh ya i side track oredi.. was toking abt today.. well whenever i cook in the past, his dad nv eat anithing.. but today he ate my crepes!!!! he took plates n sat down n start eating!!!! haha even his mom was shocked.. cuz she alwiz say he dun eat tis kinda tings 1.. *grinz* feel a sense of achievement.. so even though i onli ate ard half a crepe, but i guess it was worth it la.. cuz they finished EVERYHTING!! haha n JJ ate the most ar.. n he even came to the kitchen to c if there's anymore when i was still cooking.. haha guess they lyk it.. i'm glad.. hmz feel JJ quite poor ting,.. now i finally noe y he reali nid some1 teng teng him oredi.. *HAIZ*

oh ya tink my dear dear's fone wil nv b found le ba? tts if some1 took his fone.. erm i hope no1 took his fone lo.. cuz tt fone reali means alot to him.. all the contacts n the msgs n the tings he store in the fone.. hope kind souls out there will return his fone to him.. sometimes i feel so bad.. to push him to go leaders.. okie i noe he will excel in there.. but i c all the injuries he has all over his body, i reali xin tong lo.. feel mabbe i did the wrong ting.. haiz duno.. i noe being on top will mk him feel reali proud n happi abt it.. but seeing him so sick n all the injuries.. haiz.. duno.. sry dear..

tml i'll b pei-ing him to apply for hp..
tml's my granny's bday.. HAPPI BDAY GRANS!!!!
not tt she'll read my blog, though.. hahahahaha!!!!!

+ [A]nGe| @ 22:23

SMS-ing my colleague now.. tink he's SO down.. reali nids some1 to teng teng him.. haiz.. feeling quite sad for him.. frm wat i conjure, he lost a r/s tts 7 yrs long, a r/s tt he treasures more den his life.. lost it, juz lidat.. reminds me of how fragile a r/s can b.. gone, juz lidat.. haiz he say tt eva since den, n aft he's being hospitalized, he's been living lyk a zombie.. i can c tt.. work, work, n more work.. no life at all.. bosses takes control of his schedule.. cant even tk a day off to tk a breather..
is working life reali lidat?? does life lose its meaning the min i step outta sch?? i tink so.. he says he envious us, for being so carefree.. n he ain't reali tt old.. juz at most 7 yrs older.. n life's so diff.. i hate to tink i'l b joinin tt kinda life in 3 yrs' time..
i juz hope i gt a meaningful job.. i wana work in the army as a counsellor!!!! hmz iz there such a job? i heard there is.. or in the prison oso can!!! i noe there IS such a job...

dear dear lost his hp... sick + being ic of the day = cant rem where he left his fone.. haiz tink the 1 up there is forcing him to gt a new fone..=/ gd?? BAD LAHZ!!! cant even trade in.. but luckily we din gt a fone tt day when he was on attend C home.. cuz if we did, he'll lose his new fone!!!! tt'll b SUPER BAD!! so guess we gotta look at the bright side of tings..

seriously, i look down on guys hu ain't even trying their bez in NS.. juz gt their vocation, n they tell me they hate it n r trying all their bez to OOC (Out Of Course).. if u cant even try ur bez to protect ur country, den i'm gonna so look down on u!!!! haha okie i noe i mk it sound so easy n i've NV been tru NS.. but c'mon.. if all the other guys can do it, y cant u?! trying all ur bez to demote urself.. Y?!! y do tis kinda tings?? 1st u tink so highly of urself, wana gt into OCS.. den now u tell me u wana try n use the op u had in the past to try n demote urself?!! OMG.. wats the world coming to??
i'm SO proud of my dearie.. for being in commandos n surviving n making it into the leaders course!! so as a reward i'm gonna cook for him!! haha.. well it may nt b super nice, but at least is I cook 1.. so he's super gan dong lo..

okie guys.. STEER CLEAR OF ME!!!! dun cum too close!!! DUN SMS ME!!!! GO AWAY!!! haha i'm gg crazy..
okie i was crapping.. guys, carry on sms-ing me ba.. i wil b a gd fren n carry on giving advices.. n i LURVE to gif advices!!! haha... 24/7..

+ [A]nGe| @ 23:48

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+ [A]nGe| @ 13:35

"You're a definite keeper. You're not needy or clingy and you're almost as much fun to be around as one of the guys! You know exactly how much space your guy needs and how to keep your own groove on while in a relationship."

haha juz took the test.. i tink its so interesting!! though some of the ans ain't reali wat i was tinking.. haha pretty cute.. go try it out ba?? eh there's 1 for guys as well.. but i ain't reali sure of the webby.. well u can link to it frm the one up there, i tink..

n i took tis love meter thingy juz now.. juz key in both names n test.. n me n my dear dear r under 'true luv'!! its the highest any coupls can go le.. heh is pegg chanced upon the webby 1.. she n shaun at 'soulmates'.. haha 1 less level den me.. *grinz* tink i'm so slack at work..

dun say le.. the file i was working on, LOST!!!!! cant find it.. den i realised its saved under a temp folder.. danny say they dun delete files 1.. but i cant find it!!!! sianz.. dun feellyk doing le.. joeseph say nvm, juz cont frm where i left off.. now i'm tallying 2 files for joeseph.. 2000+ entries!! gg to die liaoz.. tink by the time i finish, my fingers r gonna cramp.. =/

n.. i din not blog for 2 days.. i din blog for 3 DAYS?!!!!

+ [A]nGe| @ 13:57

haven blogged in ages!! okie or rather, in days.. 2 days, in fact.. haha seems lyk ages liaoz.. tink i'm neglecting my own diary.. been wanting to write for the past few days but i've been LAZEEEE to even touch it.. *ouch* i'm so lazeeeee.. n i din write for my dearie laz nite too.. veh tired aft tuition n all.. slept at 12.. no TIME!!! okie i'm juz plain lazy...*grinz*

irene... I WANA WATCH HARRY POTTER LE!!! haha watched 'harry potter n the sorcerer's stone' laz weekend over TV n i tink its NICE!!! feels lyk watching the 1 on cinema now.. keke but shall c how lahz.. my dearie dun wana watch.. when i say i wana watch shrek, he sounds abit reluctant but said.. 'okie any movie but harry potter'.. now i tink he's gonna say, "any movie but 'tu ran fa cai'".. muahahaha!! okie dun worry dun tink i'll watch 'tu ran fa cai' in a million yrs..

was pms-ing yday.. pissed off n real fed up n angry.. hmz now i tink back on it.. tink i was juz pms-ing.. sry dearie!!! but was late for tuition laz nite.. ard 10 mins.. well it reali wasn't my fault.. blame it on my dear dear ba.. n yday the tutee's mom said.. 'wo siang zhan shi ting yi xia. wo hui zai da gei ni'.. =/ well i hope she doesn't eva call me agn!!!! haha cuz 1st,the pay is SUPER LOW!! 2nd, its far frm my hse.. 3rd, i duno how to teach him la.. n i tink the mom dun trust me.. so i dun reali wana teach him le.. hmz but he's reali a cute boy.. but i tink we juz dun hv the chemistry there la.. -shRugx- i hope she dun call.. den i wun hafta feel guilty when i tell her i dun wana teach oredi.. haha!! i'm so bad..

i tink guys hv their soft sides.. n guys' soft sides r juz lyk small lil kids hu wans ppl to pamper them, sayang them n dote on them.. so its reali stupid to say a guy is childish juz cuz he wans ppl to sayang him when he's down n tired.. JUZ dun do it too often.. cuz when u do it too often den the gal wil tink u're weak?? i tink so ba?? at least i tink i'll feel tt way..

+ [A]nGe| @ 08:50

to all the peeps out there who r my frens.. THX!!! i noe u guys care ya?
i'm alright oredi.. eh honestly feeling okie oredi..

dun ask me y ba.. i juz feel alright.. aft a whole week of moodiness, n feeling so down n stuff.. finally i'm alright agn.. dark clouds hv blown away.. n i'm okie once agn.. listened to wat dear dear said laz nite (or rather, early tis morning).. n i felt so sry to mk him so miserable n so upset.. n i nv intended for him to do wat he did.. i reali din expect tt to happen.. n i was so worried.. fear tt sth mite happen to him..

i was SO WORRIED.. n i cant find him.. haiz tt feeling sux..

sry dear.. i noe u luv me lots.. well me too.. n i'm sry tt tings happened the way they did.. but i nv meant to hurt u wif wat i said.. tink i reali noe how u feel, aft wat u said tis morning.. noe how u feel towards tings, how u feel towards me..
mabbe u wun rem exactly wat u said.. but i wil alwiz rem.. i promise...

n thx cerise.. noe u care loads for me.. n i certainly m touched to c ur msg.. dun worry i'm okie oredi.. mabbe we shld cum out for a tok someday.. hee if i'm sian tml most prob i'll call ya!! haha.. but tink i'll b writing ur letter ltr lo.. so wait ba!!

wana say sry to JJ for being harsh yday.. i noe he wun mind.. as in, most prob he wun even rem aft he book out nez week.. but i sincerely apologize.. hopefully it wun change the frenship or anithing.. my hp stil on 24/7 ya??? n i noe urs is too.. thx, for being there when i needed help too.. =)

+ [A]nGe| @ 22:00

haha i tink its so amazing how tis issue is raised agn.. cuz of rene n andy.. well rene has it, so do i.. keke i rem her appt dates r alwiz 1 day b4 mine.. *grinz*
well apparantly hers seems more serious den mine.. cuz i rem when we were in sec 3 (or somewhere ard there), she had to go specialist n is soon discharged, sooner den me!!!! i was so worried tt time.. but i juz had to go back for 1 or 2 more appt den i'm discharged too!!! n its not reali giving me much prob.. juz tt sometimes my back hurts.. down at the waist there where i tink my curve is supposed to b.. when i sit too long or stuff lidat..

but well, it doesn't hurt as much as rene's.. at least i tink hers is more serious.. cuz hers is a BIG S SHAPE!! omg.. mine's a curve towards the side down at the waist there.. hmz n i dun tink the chances of it posing me prob is high.. cuz i've stopped growing ya?? tts wat the doc said.. she say juz gotta monitor the conditions till my puberty's over.. hence the appts ya?? n since i stopped growing liaoz, so discharged lo!! haha

hmz abit of gastric tis morning.. did i mention i din hv dinner yday? when i was chatiing wif jT yday i was feeling abit hungry.. he shoo-ed me to go find bread to eat.. haha i din.. cuz i was lazy to brush my teeth agn ya?? haha n i dun tink there's bread at hm.. =/ but jT, sry i lied.. there's choc at hm!! muahahaha..

listening to emotion by destiny's child now.. i lyk it SO MUCH!! okie its a old song.. but i tink its so super nice.. haha i'm so sian at hm!!! i wana go out!! i wana go clubbing!! haha in the broad day light i'm saying i wana go clubbing?! =/
okie i wana go clubbing someday.. grinz..
jT: rem u promised to tk care of me if i go clubbing arhz.. hmz did u huh?? haha anyway if i go wif u, u gotta tk care of me lahz!! haha so tts equivalent liaox.. *winkx*

+ [A]nGe| @ 12:10

hmz i wana say thx to jT for pei-ing me chat laz nite.. keke its weird how i read his blog, left notes, den he started reading my blog, left notes, found me on friendster, emailed each other, finally to chatting on msn, den chatting on the fone.. i tink its so interesting..

told him alot of things laz nite.. abt swiss, abt.. stuff.. haiz swiss, the tings i alwiz say.. the regrets i hv back den in swiss.. how frens eventually left each other.. hmmx sad ting?? yes its sad.. but cant do anithing abt it.. cuz tts life.. ppl cum, ppl go.. juz gotta accept tt its life..

hmz was glad he called, actually.. cuz i was feeling SO DOWN.. n in tt nick of time, my hp rang.. at 1st i tot is who?? i tot the 1 i've been trying to call finally decided to call me back.. but, juz as well.. cuz he REALI talked to me.. cheered me up.. ya thx.. i noe ppl ard me care.. but sometimes i juz feel so down, duno whether i can still trust the ppl ard me.. how, i feel so hurt by the tings ppl do ard me.. i noe i tink too much.. mk a big fuss out of things?? i tink so..
but when tings happen, i juz feel so hurt wif it.. n i wonder y muz tings turn out tis way?!! Y?!!

haiz.. *knocks my head* dun tink so much le..
dear: though i dun tink u rem all the tings u said laz nite, but i reali hope u rem wat u promised.. stay sober okie?
jT: thx for being there when i needed some1 wif me most.. hey major in psychology ba.. u'll mk a gd counsellor.. haha n i hope tings stay the way they r.. n treat me as an individual okie? thx.. tt matters so much to me now..
JH: thx for meeting me when i needed to gt out of unhappiness.. when i needed to meet some1..
JJ: thx for being my fren.. n i hope we WILL remain as frens..
loo, irene, cerise, JY: I MISS U GALS!!!!! reali.. miss all of u..


+ [A]nGe| @ 11:36

chatting wif wenrong on ICQ now.. long time nv c him lo!! haha ppl so lovey dovey, where'll hv time online?? haha

he told me how he feels when his gf goes out.. den i realised tt we both feel the same way.. n its such a surprise!! cuz i feel ppl dun usually agree wif how i feel.. telling me to loosen up.. (or sth lidat) but not rong.. he tinks the same way i do.. n we agree.. on the same feelings.. feels kinda comforted.. cuz finally some1 shares my views..

mabbe its common on a r/s tt 1 party will feel the way we both did?? mabbe ba?? i duno.. i nv asked b4.. haha

its so cute tt we tink the same way.. i nv realised tt b4.. haha!!!

+ [A]nGe| @ 00:30

y do ppl trust?? n gt hurt in the process?? onli to realise tt u shld b alone rite frm the beginning??
y do ppl care for each other?? hoping tt the other party treats u as a fren.. onli to realise tt when u nid some1, there's no1 who can listen to u?? n the person may nt even treat u as a fren?? mabbe u're juz 'his gal'..
y do ppl fall in luv, onli to gt hurt in the process?? to b tgt for so long, onli to realise tt u're hurting each other in the process??

i put in feelings, to mk an effort to b there for my fren.. onli to realise tt at the end of the day.. i dun even noe whether i'm considered a fren to tt person.. i care n mk an effort to b there for my frens.. when they're down, i wana listen.. i wana tok to them.. to mk sure i help them out of the bad times.. but wat happens when i nid help?? m i fated to onli stay in my room n cry?? is tt my fate??

i'm not convinced!!! i dun understand y izit so? tt when i juz wana find some1 to b there for me, i dun c anyone ard me?? tt when i juz wana look for a listening ear, i cant find any1??

i dun trust in the past.. but i changed.. aft i go JC.. my frens in JC mk me believe tt they're alwiz there for me.. n i start to believe tt i'm being treated as a fren.. a person they can confide in, n a person who will confide in them..
n i begin to learn to trust.. i begin to help others.. i begin looking for my soulmate.. n i oso begin to look for some 1 i can share my life wif..
buti realised tt tts not the case.. juz cuz u tot tts the way it shld b dun mean tt others tink the same way..

cerise.. i miss u.. reali feel lyk toking to u.. cuz somehow i feel, onli u'll understand how i feel.. cuz i believe, u n i tink alike..
n i hope my belief is right.. cuz i'm oredi covered with wounds.. i cant tk another injury..
even when i'm hurt thoroughly.. i stil believe.. i've frens ard me.. loo, irene, cerise, jy.. is tis called unrepentant??
mabbe, mabbe not.. if they're truly ppl hu will stand beside me when i'm down, den i'm not being unrepentant..
unless they're not.. but i stil believe they r.. my true frens.. hu will alwiz b there for me..

i feel lyk ruby.. when she was in sec 1.. n i tink.. i'm the type who's juz lyk her.. the tings i wil do when i'm down, when i'm stressed..
those tots flahed tru my mind.. but til now.. i will stil luv myself.. for my parents..
when 1 day when all left me.. i will do wat she did..

feeling so bitchy now.. so wat if the blog seems bimbo-ish?? wats so bad abt bimbos?? at least guys luv them.. rite now, i'd gif anithing to go out n club, flirt wif the guys.. haha isn't tt nice?? to forget abt my identity for juz 1 nite.. to put away everything on my mind?? to forget abt everything.. juz for tt moment...

i needa feel numb.. to feel hurt no more.. to tear no more..
some1 teach me how??

to the some 1 i sounded super harsh to.. sry.. i din mean it.. feeling super down..
to jiahui: thx for meeting me when i called.. luckily i found u.. else tink i'll go crazy tinking abt everything up there on my brains.. wif no1 to distract me away frm those tots.. haix but dun ask can? thx..

i juz wan some1 to b wif me.. izit veh difficult??

+ [A]nGe| @ 22:14

finally completed my blogskin.. haha the html code of my blog is actually veh simple.. now its become so complicated.. cuz i 'transported' alot of things frm my prev template here.. haha so TADA!!! its completed once more.. hmmx i wonder how long tis template wil last me..
lyk i said... the nez time i'm feeling super down den i'll go n change the template agn.. haha!!

oh well.. at least now it looks super nice ya?? keke n ppl.. if u cant c the pics.. pls refresh.. or wait awhile la.. loading the pics tk time 1 okie.. haha i'm feeling so happi now!!!! cuz i juz completed my blog's new look!!! n i'm gg KTV!!!!! haha pher's treating anyway.. *grinx* THX PHER!!!

did i say b4 i tink pher is a nice name?? hmx n i tink leo is a nice name too.. (cuz i'm leo ya?) ha no la.. n i tink jinjun is a nice name too.. *grinx*
n of cuz.. kristin.. muahahaha..
tinking of names for my kids in future.. tts if i can successfully gt married.. haha!!
left on the shelf till i'm old!! NO!!! haha
n peeps.. juz cuz i'm attached dun mean i'll b married off ya? keke

+ [A]nGe| @ 12:03

haha i change the template of my blog lo!!!! nice?? i tink its super nice lo.. hmmx mabbe whenever i feel down i shall change my blogskin.. cheers me up?? mabbe.. looking tru all the nice nice skins makes me veh happi.. haha!! i'm abit crazy liaoz la..

well as i said, i saw tis ff8 skin tts super nice!! but i decided not to use tt template.. cuz the template itself is quite ordinary.. juz the pic super nice onli.. nth special except the pic lo.. oh ya n the music!! but well, i can alwiz on my mp3 player ya?? haha!!

shan't comment much abt my blog la.. veh late la i wana go slp le.. anyway i tink the color combi of the tag board sux.. *yAwnx* who cares.. another day ba.. haha
nitex peeps..

n JT.. QUIT BEING LAME LAHX!!!! -duH-

+ [A]nGe| @ 02:12

i feel lyk changing my blog template.. haha i stil luv tis 1.. but c so long le feel lyk changing liaoz.. muz b influenced by irene la.. c la.. haha hai wo abandon my me-to-you!!

hmz i found tis ff8 blogskin SUPER NICE!!! haha i tink it's SOOO sweet!!!! but the design not TT nice.. juz tt wif the pic the whole ting look so super nice ya? haha but i shall wait n c.. 1 day when i reali bo liao den tink i'll change my blog skin.. actually i oredi attempted to change le.. but duno wat happen, the templtae cant b seen.. no choice lo.. another day ba.. when i gt the mood le den i'll do it agn.. haha

n irene ar.. the JING page looks quite nice la dun hafta worry.. n ur blog looks nice oso la.. though its SUPER LAME!! haha irene's left hand rule.. *grinz* n its SO not-irene.. cuz its pink!!! OMG.. irene?? pink?? but i muz agree tt hot pink is a super nice color!! haha
n.. great JING sale?? r u kidding?? -_-""

feeling ABIT beta now.. but, gd mood dun last ya?? well, at least for me, gd mood these few days usually dun last.. i wan go KTV!!! tml!! sun!! hmz shall c how izit 1st.. my plans r ALWIZ spoilt at the laz min rem??

JJ's super sick.. 38.?? degrees.. cant rem liaoz.. juz rem its SUPER HIGH!! oh mi gosh.. i hope he's alright.. hmz he's at hendon medical centre now.. haha resting lo.. so poor ting.. alot of guys sick nowadays.. hope they'll b alright la.. NS is not a gd time to fall sick.. cuz those guys alwiz dun wan go c MO for fear of missing lessons.. pls lor!! not as if u will b kana kicked out for falling sick rite?? health more impt la.. tk care of urself..

pls.. tk care of urself.. dun mk ppl ard u worry for u.. sick le den go c MO la.. nearly fainted on the march rite?? dun promote den dun promote lo.. health is more impt la.. die le but promoted to coporal gt use huh??
okie.. i shan't scold liaoz.. doesn't help anyway..
-shRugx-

+ [A]nGe| @ 23:35

Guys drink to forget about the girl...
Girls drink to think back about the guy...

When guys are in love, they become poor...
When girls are in love, they become pretty...

Guys can forget, but cannot forgive...
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget..

Guys care the most about the quantity of love...
Girls care the most about the quality of love..

Guys break-up when they feel love from another girl...
Girls break-up when they feel separation from her man...

Guys feel curiosity towards all girls...
Girls feel curiosity towards guys who are interested in her..

When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl...
When girls are heartbroken, they try to find his characteristics from another guy...

Guys wish to be her first love....
Girls wish to be his last love...

stole tis frm irene's quotes' blog.. i tink its so true..
feeling so down now.. wat shld i do?? wat CAN i do?? tis is not wat i want.. but yet i cant help but feel tis way.. i cant trust anymore.. if i cant trust, den y persist?? we're both dying..

i'm dying.. who can help me?? i'm lost..
i tink huo gai by SHiN is so nice.. luv it so much..
i wana cry..

+ [A]nGe| @ 20:26

at work now.. pegg's on leave.. cuz shaun POP.. so i'm all alone wif nth to do.. training's finally finished.. finally i can face joseph le.. i was so paiseh whenever he walked past me yday.. cuz i dun dare tell him i'm re-doing the course.. for the 2nd time.. =/ which means i did the course 3 times in all.. CAN U BELIEVE IT?? 3 times?! OMG i'm so stupid..

cerise!! so nice to c ur note.. THX!! haha noe u shld b veh tired now le ba?? haha standing for so mani days.. hmx eat more la.. later disappear arhz!!! LOL.. i'm so mean.. glad to noe u're 'surprised' by the surprise.. haha wana let u hv a memorable bday ya? since ur boy boy not wif u.. so we shall gif u a beta celebration!! haha though i can understand tt nth beats havin him by ur side..
-slaps myself- (quit being moody la!!!)
i'm gg crazy.. =/

i'm alright la, pal.. dun hafta worry abt me.. n if there's anithing, i'll def update u abt it.. juz tt i've been too tired these days to write ur letter.. mabbe tonight ba?? or tml? den i'll send it to u!! haha but u gotta reply leh.. dun mk me wait till my neck lyk giraffe agn.. haha long neck dun suit me la.. *grinz*

i shall quit wallowing in unhappiness.. if anithing makes me unhappi, den i'll mk it a reason for me to b down no more..
i feel lyk gg clubbing.. dance the nite away.. when'll i eva hv the chance?? -sigh-
i wana go KTV too.. n i'm gg tml!!! wif pher n peeps.. i hope they dun cancel it agn.. i reali wana go sing.. been wanting to sing since wed.. though i juz went KTV-ing on tues nite.. haha i luv to sing so much!!
i sing when i'm 'up'..
n i sing when i'm down too..
=)

+ [A]nGe| @ 13:46

bad mood = no appetite...
guess i'm lidat.. i'm SO affected by wat happens ard me.. i onli had a small bowl of cereal n 1 kuay the whole of yday.. today, i onli had 2 pieces of bread n half a slice of papaya juz now.. hmx til now la.. no breakfast, no lunch.. onli gt teabreakn most prob dinner.. yday, no breakfast, no dinner.. but i'm glad i haven had gastric.. n i hope it doesn't occur..

the beliefs i used to hold true.. i buried them cuz i was convinced by words tt they're not wat tings shld b.. ppl tell me tt i shld not b so absolute.. i listened.. n i trust, i gif chances.. onli to realise, tt at the end of the day, wat i had believed in were right.. n i had to b hurt in the process to prove tt others r wrong.. n i started to chide myself, y din i hold true to my beliefs??

it's not easy for me to trust ppl.. so peeps out there who hv gained my trust, pls treasure it n dun betray it..
it esp wasn't easy to put in ur trust agn aft it's been betrayed.. n aft trusting agn, sth else happened agn..
i hate ppl to lie to me.. hate it hate it hate it.. but, wat happens?? haiz..

1 is fire, the other is ice.. if putting both tgt onli means liang bai ju shang, den y commit n hurt both sides in the process?? y cant both wake up n realise tt u're dying b4 u're dead?? hopefully i'll wake up in time.. i dun wana wake up onli to c myself in the coffin, 6 feets below ground.. =S
okie i tink TOO much..

i wana go KTV.. haha JJ say i sing quite well.. esp yanzi's songs.. told him it's cuz i practise alot..
i sing when i'm down ya??

i've so mani tots gg tru my brains.. but i had talked it out.. wif a super gd fren named JJ.. thx so much.. if u wasn't there, tink i'll break down.. dun hafta do anithing.. listen can le..
n mani tings, lyk i've said b4.. i cnt say here..

+ [A]nGe| @ 16:38

pegg told me juz now joseph ask her whether me n jackson r related.. ??????? y tis kinda qn?? weird.. shld me n jackson hv any connection at all??

hmz i cant reali rem wat i wana blog le..hmmm... tis is part of a SMS conversation..

"dun call the gals bitch if they broke up wif the guy while he's in NS.. put urself in the gal's shoes.. u wun understand how it feels when the guy is not beside u when u nid him.."

"ok.. mabbe i was wrong to scold them bitch.. but then agn.. u hv to reali now how the guys felt in the camp.. longing to c their gal.. onli to break up not long aft..u hv to c them to feel their pain n loss tt eventually leads to most guys hating NS.."

"haha u sound lyk u've been tru it.. ok mabbe u're rite in a way.. but u hafta understand tt the gal oso feel the pain.. when they're down n everything n the guy is not there wif u.."

"both sides suffer lor..i nv been tru it b4 but can understand.. when u c guys juz break down lo.. u wun noe wat to say or do to console him.. n i hv seen guys trying all their bez to gt 8-5 job juz to b wif their gal or juz trying to tk off juz to b there for her.. onli to b spoiled by those stupid officers.. gal gt disappointed n guy gets frustrated pissed hopeless n upset.."

"but there're cases when the gal supports wat the guy hafta do in camp n understand tt he's not alwiz free.. tries to understand n all, onli to realise tt either the guy's changed or they weren't suitable rite in the beginning.."

the rest r not reali worth mentioning..
conclusion 1: if the gal breaks up cuz she tinks tt the guy has no time for her, den mite as well say its cuz she dun luv the guy anymore..
conclusion 2: there's no right or wrong in a r/s.. it all depends on whether the couple is compatible, n their commitment to the r/s..

+ [A]nGe| @ 13:37

had a veh bad nite yday.. couldn't gt to slp.. duno y.. tossed n turned.. cant slp.. woke up at 5+ cuz JJ n JH msged me.. s**t la aft tt i cant slp agn liaoz.. =/ bad mood = cant slp?? -shRugx-

perhaps i shouldn't day dream so much.. cuz it onli adds on to my imagination.. n tts bad.. i imagine too much liaoz.. tink of too many tings, ends up i onli disappoint myself.. daydreaming + holding high hopes = too big a disappointment?? -shRugx-

dun feel lyk eating.. sore throat + bad mood = no appetite = no breakfast = blogging..

well as a compensation, i had a super nice dream aft i fall aslp at 5+.. sth tt i tink wil onli happen in my dream.. so i guess its nth worth mentioning ya?? since it'll nv happen in the reality.. lyk i said, i tink too much.. daydreaming = nightdreaming?? haha

loo: mabbe u're rite abt the test for couples when the guy is in NS.. but pls dun go thru it.. life sux frm there on.. b happi u're not in tt predicament ba.. right person + wrong timing = no outcome frm the r/s??? -shRugx- i tink so...
JH: thx for pei-ing me chat laz nite n msg-ing me early in the morning.. though it's cuz u're sian wif nth do n gotta wake up super early for duty.. haha!!! u lemme noe tt some1 still rem me.. well at least u replied to my SMS-es..

gotta work.. life is.. ARGH.. irritating..
*i've gt so limited words in my vocab.. i dun even noe wat to scold.. haha..

+ [A]nGe| @ 07:37