thx to irene.. now i'm hooked on patricia cornwell.. n i'm back to those days when i can juz sit on the sofy n on my bed the whole day juz reading.. haha yupz! i dun even feel lyk being online or watching TV.. juz reading..
haha its nice.. (=

anyways, tings r alright le.. tink alot of my frens wun noe wat i'm talking abt.. hmz when we mit up den mabbe i'll say ba.. but cerise laffed when i told her.. hey!! u're the priviledged few hu noes wat happened lo!! *hmph* haha but nvm.. i stil haven tel sum of my frens hu knew.. actually, its juz 1-2 la..

cycled to driving today.. den went lot1 aft tt to drop by the lib.. i reali haven exercised for a veh long time.. was tired out aft awhile.. but i managed home.. =/ haha but it feels quite nice to perspire..

the outfit stil no zhao luo.. duno wat to wear.. mabbe i'll gt sum inspirations aft shopping tml n thurs.. haha.. i wana go beach tan!!! haven been tanning for quite sum time le.. muz go beach 1 day..

n s81 BBQ!!!!!!!!!!! tis sat!!!! so excited!!! it'll b nice to mit them aft so long.. haha n its so near somemore!! cuz its juz @ alex's hse, which is lyk, a 10mins bus ride frm my hse.. keke if i wan ride bike down oso can.. hmz sounds quite tempting ar.. but i tink my mom wun allow me to do tt.. n he wun allow tt too.. hee

oh ya!! n chalet!!! haha he invited me b4 le, but i haven officially say yes yet.. but most prob i'll b gg lo.. aft all, i've been gg every time.. as in, i've been to all their chalets.. haha same time as last yr.. ard new yr!! tink mommy wun stop me frm gg ba.. hee sg idol tml!!! hopefully the results wun fail us..

i wan go JP!! i wan go giftland.. i've gt sth to look for.. hopefully i'll find it..
taiwan has so many scandals.. they're juz making a fool of themselves la.. i mean the politicians..


+ [A]nGe| @ 22:16

suddenly i feel i've no life..
slack at home everyday..
yupz.. tts how no life i can b..
every1 hu reads my blog..
enjoy ur day ba!!
hee at least stil gt a person hu oso very sian can pei me chat..
luckily he's gt free incoming..
else i'll reali b bored to TEARS liaoz.. (=
hmz i suddenly kinda miss RZ..
very long nv chat wif him liaoz..
mabbe i shld call him out 1 day..
haha!!
i'm sianz @ home..


+ [A]nGe| @ 10:17

i'm supposed to go out today.. yup.. supposed to.. kana pangseh-ed.. hmz at least i felt pangseh-ed lars.. so tink i'll jus stay hm ba.. slack n watch TV.. or mabbe i'll date my mom agn.. haha

went shopping wif mommy yday.. to look for an outfit for kor's wedding dinner.. saw tis gown n its reali veh nice!! fits me totally.. BUT its ex.. erm though he kip telling me its veh cheap for a gown, but i tink its not worth it la.. so suan le lo.. look ard la.. if cant find an outfit tts suitable den mabbe i'll settle for tt gown..

was intending to go out n look for outfits today 1.. n ask mi fren for help on wat i can wear.. nvm.. i shall b nice n understand.. aft all, i haven reali told her wat happened.. haha -beaRgh-

n peg.. dun so sad okie?? i mean, pls LEAVE HIM.. he's reali not worth it.. we shall b independant n survive on our own!! @ least we stil hv each other ya??

i juz realised wif horror tt lot1 has no more swatch.. i tink its been converted to bits n pieces.. n i wana go swatch to replace the batt!! sianz.. nw i gotta go somewhere far.. i wanted to replace the batt today 1!! nw i'm not gg out.. any1 wana date me?????

hey boy.. i noe u care.. reali i noe u do.. i'll tk care of myself la u dun hafta worry.. n dun so sian la!! there's so many other ppl pei u wat.. keke.. u tk care too kk??


+ [A]nGe| @ 10:00

haha i'm in a lala mood today..
happi happi..

exams r finally over!! had to force myself to stop gg online juz for tt 3-4 days.. gif my exams a chance.. though i tink i juz flunked my papers, but i guess there's nth much i can do now except to pray for the bez..

n peg!! i went back on wat i said i was gg to do agn.. but tis time, i'm feeling much beta.. cuz i tk tings in my stride n i felt so much more beta.. n most imptly, i guess i finally understood tings.. =)

well now tt exams r over, i wana havock!!!!!

n i wana work.. but lyk wat shelia said, who will wana hire me juz for a mth.. so mabbe i'll juz look out for ad-hoc jobs.. those roadshows tt lasts a few days..

n oso voices performance!!!! i'm reali looking forward to it!! juz hope tt my cough recovers soon.. no1 will like to hear a toad croak on stage rite?? haha i will post up the time slots for the performance.. but ppl.. PLS dun go.. it'll b paiseh n not veh nice.. haha

n driving was grt!! i juz lurve driving.. i tink i noe y ppl like to speed when they're in a bad mood.. its so shiok!! =)
now i hv to prepare for my FTT nez mon..
EXAMS!!!

n irene: pat cornwell is nice!!!!!! haha thx ar..


+ [A]nGe| @ 13:14

did i mention tt i fell down in LT13 on the stairs when i was having my TS prac exam on thurs?
well yesh i fell down n i hv a blue black on my right knee..

NOW I FELL DOWN AGN!!!! at home somemore.. *paiseh* now my left knee has a blue black..
i'm so into equality..
blue black oso both knees muz hv @ the same spot..

i'm still sick lars.. can u imagine a 19yr old gal wearing a jacket at 5+ pm??!!!!
*sianz*
luckily gt JJ n jason pei me chat.. haha
"boyfren shi shen me?? ke yi chi de ma??"
cute mehx?? they say i veh cute when i said tt.. =/
they're crazy..

to all ntu ppl: CONGRATS!!
irene finish her paper liaoz..
i noe i noe.. in another 4 days my papers wld b over oso wat..
but tt juz means tt my DD's nearer..
haiz.. study ba..


+ [A]nGe| @ 19:43

onlinda's out!!!!! i'm so sad.. stupid sylvester.. kicked out olinda!!! hmz she has the voice lo.. n its pretty obvious sylvester sang so horribly!!! argh!!!! but nvm.. its pretty obvious taufik's gonna win lo.. i mean, its no fight lo.. IF SYLVESTER WINS, I'M GONNA SHA REN LE.. the whole MOV grp will go crazy.. cuz we're so for taufik!! haha jiayou!!!!

hmz i tink i'm gonna flunk tis sem.. if it makes all of u out there feel beta, i haven study!!!!! cuz.. cuz.. haiz i noe its no excuse.. nvm..
n the more i read my psyc text the more i tink i've gt depression.. =X kidding..

i duno wat else to say liaoz..
n irene.. tagboard's back to normal liaoz.. can u pls add it in so i can tag?? comment is so mafan.. n it takes super long to load.. haha ;)

+ [A]nGe| @ 11:56

my TS grp mates..all 8 of them..
xiauting, mabel, corinne, michelle, don, esther, gracia n juls..
haiz no more rehearsals le.. i'm actually quite sad la.. cuz its juz books books n more books!!!
ppl, if u EVA read tis.. I MISS U PPL!!!
i tink we've come a pt where we're reali close wif each other..
cuz its lyk, from nth to frens, to lunch khakis, to grp mates.. its a long way.. n we promise to kip in touch k? thru the yahoo grp, through meeting up for lunch.. wateva, i juz wana kip in touch wif them..

n i dun lyk ppl to meddle in my stuff.. period..

u ppl all out duno anithing.. haha i sound harsh.. yeah..
but dun try n understand me k?
or rather, understand the tings tt happened..
if i tell u anithing, i trust tt u will kip it to urself.. PLS..
it matters alot to me..
i noe u care..
but juz wait till the time is ripe, i will fill u in..
dun try n b smart kk??
thx..

urgh.. still down wif flu n sore throat.. darn..
i wana recover asap..
once i finish the med at home.. i'll hv no choice but to c a doc.. i dun wan!!


+ [A]nGe| @ 18:06

i'm totally knocked out oredi.. i can feel my seh-ness and short-temperedness.. (is there such a word??)
anyways, there's sth wrong wif tag-board.. argh it sux.. i juz hope it returns back to normal real fast so tt i can cont to tag in other ppl's blog (aka irene n loo)
meanwhile, i shall tag in my blog... i believe they will read my blog when they come online.. haha

irene: aiyo i noe justin is nice to u la.. jus dun forget tt we're nice to u too!! else i'll bish u!!!! haha meanwhile, enjoy the feeling of being in luv ba!!=)

loo: u noe wats the craziest ting now?? i miss econs!! reali i miss the economic days.. where we alwiz tok cock n all the econs stuff come out.. haha its so fun.. reali miss SA days.. i wan to go back SA!!!!!!!!!!! haha..

u 2 take care kk??

hmz i feel much beta le.. as in, i feel tt tings r alot beta now.. mabbe alot has changed, but the feeling dun change so fast.. it juz feels gd to b able to tok.. though not as much as we used to, but tings r more or less back to normal.. i guess?? haha let time determine tings ba.. rite now i juz wish to clear my exams!!!!!!! i'm so dead lo!!!
tis time nez week i'll b free from exams!!!!
haha but i will miss my TS prac frens.. esp grp 10!!
i wana set up a yahoo group for them leh.. hee.. juz hope to remain as close can le.. =) they're grt ppl..
btw, i finished the set design portfolio @ 430 last nite.. slept @ 5.. @_@ now i've gt panda eyes.. haha
they wana go marche eat tml leh.. aft the prac exam..
though exams r coming.. but heck lar!!!! i juz wana enjoy every min of uni life.. hanging ard wif mah frens.. cooL~!!!!


+ [A]nGe| @ 16:38

yesh!!! u're rite!!! i'm pia-ing my sch work AGN!!!!
but tis time its diff.. its an exam!!! haha my TS prac exam.. =/
anyways, i'm suposed to finish it by tonight and i still hv a long way to go..
hopefully i can finish it by 4am.. but i tink its almost impossible..
haiz i stil rem how naive i was in sec4..
staying up til 3+ am to finish the lettering for inspection nite concert..
n i was saying its gonna b the last time i'll b staying up late for tis kinda stuff..
how wrong i was la.. stupid me..
its so late oredi n i'm stil in front of the PC!!!
i've ran out of tings to crap.. HOW??!!!!!
xiauting will kill me if i cant pull this thru..
haiz beta gt back to work la..
i dun wana slp @ 5am..
i stil needa reach sch @ 11, latest..
327am.. way to go, xuan!!!!!!!!

P.S. -- i stil haven tink of wat to bring tml to show esther for my costume.. i dun hv shoes!!!! =X


+ [A]nGe| @ 03:27

life's nv fair.. nv nv nv nv fair.. NOT FAIR!!!!!!! NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!
haiz i juz wana scream..
mabbe i was reai harsh tis afternoon..
but i reali hope he'll snap outta it..
its not the end of life..
but i saw the fotos n i juz feel tt LIFE'S SO NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!
mabbe its fate tt he din go..
he'll feel so hurt..
hmz i'm beginning to feel tt ppl hu read my blog r feeling confused..
haha sry..
esp to my frens..
i noe ALL of u care..
THANKEW!!!! *hugs*
i'm fine la.. i noe tings will blow over..
when everything's finalised le den i'll tell u all kk??
dun worry i'm fine..
n irene.. i'm not scolding u la!!
i juz forgot to put it in a new para tts all..
haha paiseh ar..

+ [A]nGe| @ 20:15

irene ar!! i'm so touched wor.. =/
but i guess i'm reali alright..

if u wana hide in tt hole of urs which u hv dug for urself.. fine..
i'm not gonna care anymore..
y shld i?? when u hv chosen to gif urself up, there ain't much i can do..
unless u snap out of it, u will b trapped in depression forever..
if u wana juz slp it past, go ahead..
u beta mk urself a comfortable bed in tt hole of urs..
but den agn.. i dun tink u care..
*pissed*


+ [A]nGe| @ 13:03

i'm a spoilt brat.. but i totally enjoy it when ppl r concerned abt me..
thx loo, cerise, RZ n JJ..
haha n all those out there hu cares...
i'm okie.. REALI!! i'm okie.. dun hafta worry abt me la..
if there's any prob i'll talk tings out..
reali i'm okie i'm fine!!! (=
but i feel lyk i'm trying too hard..
til even i myself feel lyk i'm a nuisance..
if tts the way u wan it to b..
tts the way i'll let it be..
i wana stop trying n b a heartless creature..
i guess not every guy's lyk RZ..


+ [A]nGe| @ 10:12

i noe tt its very cruel of me to do tt.. but i dun hv a choice.. i dun wan tings to drag..
i'm not a heartless gal.. i feel sad too..
but there has to b a more rational person..
i'm sry if i've hurt u..


+ [A]nGe| @ 14:17

hmz bros wedding coming, so parents r bz nowadays.. they're hardly @ home.. haha i used to mind.. but i suddenly rem..
i used to enjoy being home alone.. kinda gifs me the authority @ home.. haha crazy..
anyways.. i'm happi!!!!!
i juz kip gg to my rm n smile..
cuz i juz shifted the furniture in my rm.. now it looks so much more bigger n comfy!! hee..
i guess its lyk a new start to my life..
crappy.. but i'm happi..
cuz my whole family (well almost.. except my big bro cuz he went jogging) helped me shift the furniture!! i lurve being the youngest daughter once in a while.. feel so cool.. hee
*touched* thx all..
though my rm is no longer "cosy" (cuz its too packed), but i appreciate the xtra space..
i cant wait for exams to b over..
so that i can officially slack..
i'm slacking unofficially now..
shld i cal n meet to return the stuff?
mabbe i shld..
tts wat they cal.. a clean break??
hmz aft the work out to shift the furniture, i feel alot more energetic..
but i'm still sick.. i nid to recover asap..
i muz b well by thurs!!!
but i dun wana c the doc.. i'm so qian bian.. =X


+ [A]nGe| @ 13:47

i'm so touched to noe tt so many ppl care for me..
tt when i visit my blog there's so many tags..

i juz hope tt tis last request of mine will be complied..
tis is the last time i will ask anithing from u..
thou shalt not have thy serpent sting thee twice..
and i reali feel lyk answering him tis juz now..
thou shalt not answer tt.. but say, it is my humour -- 'tis it ans'ered?
but i dun wana b scolded..

m sick..
i hope i recover soon..
the merchant of venice is in my blood now..
shylock the world thinks, and i think so too..
onli he will gt the joke..
but.. it doesn't reali matter anymore..


+ [A]nGe| @ 23:52

..i'm gg crazy.. wif all the thy, thee, thou.. =X
see what the merchant of venice does to me..
okie i'm almost completing my research essay.. which i seriously crapped..
ALOT..
n.. in the process..
i flared up..
gt pissed off..
ate peaches..
on my loudspeaker reali loud..
and gt my mom worried abt me..
look wat loooooong essays do to me..
n.. ltr i stil've to try n memorize my MOV script..
n go back to my

not on thy sole, but on thy soul (harsh Jew)
and i forgot the rest.. haha i'm juz a small character.. its okie..
haha..
btw, b4 i forget..
i haven finish my research essay..
*back to crapping*


+ [A]nGe| @ 15:10

not even halfway done.. i'm SHOO dead..
but i'm tried!! slping @ 330 n waking up @ 830..
stupid lazy pig is not even up yet lo..
n he slept @ 1145.. =X
okie la he's sick.. *beaRgh*
i gotta gt back to writing my report..
i hate assignments..
n i haven memorize the script!!
n the portfolio.. i dun hv the books..
ARH!!!!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!! i've no time to hit the books!!!!!


+ [A]nGe| @ 09:09

okie as all of u can guess, i'm pia-ing my assignment AGN.. as usual.. =X
i noe i noe.. its last min work agn.. i'll try not to do it agn nez sem, at most..
try la har..
*yAwnx* 226am n i'm onli 468 words into the assignment.. its mission impossible to finish everything by 1700 hrs la!! its 2500 words u noe.. =/
i gotta stop all tis laz min stuff la! *sigh*
my onli worry is tt aft i've applied all my crapping skills, i'm stil far frm taget..
the min is 2250 words.. so tt leaves another.. 1782 words..OMG.. wil i hv enuff to crap?
hw m i to mk it for tml's rehearsal?? wif my panda like looks??!!
luckily i turned down the job tml.. else i'll die lyk i nv die b4.. HAHA.. *not farnie*
okie i gotta go back n finish tis crap.. else i'll die till veh badly liaoz..

+ [A]nGe| @ 02:30

i'm so envious.. cuz nice things dun happen to me anymore..
irene!! treasure him kk??


+ [A]nGe| @ 13:19

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+ [A]nGe| @ 11:28

i wonder y muz the east n the west hv a cold war? mabbe it resulted because they both refuse to seriously communicate wif each other.. mabbe if the east wld put down the stupid pride n tok to the west, den mabbe there'll b no cold war at all!! mabbe the history wld den b diff.. the west cnt gif in to the east all the time.. there muz b a compromise..

i'm crapping.. as usual..

i cant drink coffee.. i realised i hv abit of gastric when i drink coffee nowdays..
no coffee = no late nites = cnt study.. =X

woke up late tis morning.. for sch.. agn..
useless me..
supposed to b studying, but slacking as usual..
how useless can my life gt??
i wana go ikea today.. my fav cheesecake..
but some1 prefer to waste his days off like tis, wat can i do?
i'm not gonna go crawling back..
i've had enuff of being the 1 passive..
i wana b approached..
i'm NOT gonna gif in..
over my dead body..

yday was my anniversary..
i hate anniversaries.. alone..
bah.. i shld go back n find corinne n gang..

btw, sry i was pissed at u yday, esther..
i was.. pissed.. *apologies*
i was rude la.. sry


+ [A]nGe| @ 10:39

i haven blogged for.. 2 days..
okie i've attempted studying.. but i guess i failed.. my progress is SOOOO slow, i prob wun mk it to finish reading everything.. n i dun understand everything i read.. haiz i wonder y i bother studying the other subjects when the 1 i onli hv interest in studying is psyc.. but the bk is darn heavy..

i had a dream juz now.. cerise!! i dreamt of u!! n ur honey.. haha but it wasn't a dream, for me..
n i juz realised i've to b in sch at 11 for the darn blardy TS thingy.. I HATE THE DIRECTOR!!!! i hope no1 frm my Ts grp sees tis.. but i've had enuff!!!! they dun tell me anything!! or rather, she dun tell me anithing n she assumes that we read our email.. IRRESPONSIBLE!!!! i'm stil home n i haven packed anithing yet lo.. WALAU!! forever..
i hate stuff tts last min..


+ [A]nGe| @ 09:27

how can he juz go to slp wif ease?!!!! i'm so worried!!!!! =X
so i msged japheth.. *oops* but i'm reali super worried wat.. lying on my bed, but yet i cant gt to slp.. so i decided to blog..
haiz.. hopefully everything'll b okie..
*thx justin* hitched a ride frm him down to tampines juz now.. feel so paiseh..
n i duno wat to say abt wat happened today..
i'm veh seh..
tink i shld juz quit worrying.. he's not even worried.. y shld i?
nitez..

+ [A]nGe| @ 22:26

*oops* sry for pissing u off, loo.. haha but i'm sure u wun mind!! haha.. i noe u veh da fang 1.. hee n btw, u've gt a veh nice haircut!! haha reali reali.. veh chio.. keke..
went out wif irene n loo today.. pei irene go buy justin's bday prez.. n loo ended up buying a prez for david as well.. for their 3mths annicersary.. hmz tink the last time i bought a anniversary gift for dearie was on 8th mar.. =X hee nvm.. i'm sure he wun mind!! haha..

n i saw the red E700A.. so ugly!!! haha i tot of it as my dream fone n i juz wana pwn a red E700A.. but i finally saw it today n i realised tt its actually veh ugly.. cuz the color is not the bright red tt i lyk.. it looks orangy to me.. so.. conclusion is.. the fone is actually so so ugly.. me n loo was lyk.. eeh so ugly!! i'd hv expected it to look much nicer!! so.. cerise!! u're rite.. the fone IS ugly.. *evil grin*

hmz ppl's gf r all not free to go down hendon.. i'm free but i wun b gg down..
such an ironic..
nvm.. =)
jiayou, dearie!! persevere n hang in there!! i support u!!


+ [A]nGe| @ 23:58

n i'm growing fatter.. so i've decided to exercise.. tis sat..
hopefully..


+ [A]nGe| @ 14:59

okie i guess i was kinda crazy yday.. =X sry ppl.. gotta bear wif my craziness once in a while.. for all hu asked if i'm okie yday..
i'm okie!!! reali reali.. thx for yer concern.. but i'm reali alright le.. feeling alot beta today.. juz hope these horrible horrible days will b over soon..

i met a se peh peh on my way hm juz now!! haha okie its BAD to jump to conclusions lyk tis.. but i was so scared!!
was on 188 juz now when tis ah pek boarded the bus.. as usual, i was siittin on the inner seat n sitting closer to the window..
suddenly, i felt the sleeve of the person sitting next to my brushing against my arm.. den i turn ard n saw tt ah pek sitting veh close to me!! at 1st i tot is i duo xin, den i turned n c tt he's reali sitting close to me, n tt he actually has alot of space but he prefer to "squeeze" close to me!! walau!! den i was deciding whether i shld stand up.. but lyk veh bad, cuz he din do anithing wat.. juz sitting rather close to me.. tts all.. =X
den juz b4 he reached his stop den he start sitting abit further away.. *phew* den he alighted 1 stop at IMM.. scary..

+ [A]nGe| @ 17:50

stop telling me abt wats gonna happed tis fri.. I NOE!! i feel the pain n sadness he feels.. so dun tell me abt it anymore n I'M NOT GG!! i've been hearing so much news abt it, it hurts.. i feel his pain, so dun tel me abt it anymore.. pls..


+ [A]nGe| @ 10:27

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
i juz discovered sth n i'm so shocked..

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG


+ [A]nGe| @ 10:02

life has been bad for me these few days..
God's unfair.. i dun understand y izit so UNFAIR?!!! he's been working hard too.. he's worked REALI hard too.. all the missions he carried out.. all the achievements he made.. all the unfair treatment, he beared wif it.. having to tk the 4 Bravo route while others took 4 ALpha, he carried his platoon thru it all.. it was a BIG achievement n God noes how proud i m of him.. but the treatment tt he received is SO UNFAIR!! i dun understand y is life making a joke out of him? having to go thru so much tribulations.. having to do so much n still behind others.. how the others r all tgt wif it while he has to b different somehow.. he has worked harder den any1 else!! Y?? y cant he receive the same type of honour as the others do.. i saw the glow in his eyes 10 mths ago when he told me abt it.. n i saw the sadness in his eyes when he told me the final arrangement 3 days ago.. life is so unfair..

y is others born wif a silver spoon in the mouth while others cant even fend for themselves? they made a mistake but y is life so harsh on them.. i understand tt ppl have to learn in order to grow up.. i totally understand tt logic.. but tis is TOO MUCH! i dun wan him to b forced to do tings tt he dun wan to.. i dun wana c his life ruined.. i promise i will do anithing to prevent him frm choosing tt route.. I FORBID IT! i dun wana c him suffer so much..

i'm sry i was not understanding for the past 2 days.. i hope u understand.. n i hope tt u finally grew up.. i will try n help in whatever ways i can.. i juz hope tt life will b beta for u frm now on.. n i hope tt everything WILL BE straightened out when u're at the bridge.. *i hope the words of enlightenment frm our ancestors are true*

*if U're out there and U heard my prayers, pls help him thru this difficult period of time.. pls help him pass his test today.. i duno wat will happen to him if he cant mk it.. i dun wana c him suffer so much.. i wana c him happi, juz like how he used to b.. w/o so much troubles on hand..*


+ [A]nGe| @ 09:22