i noe its nan mian to b envious when ppl receive presents n r being pampered upon when u dun receive the same treatment..
well i guess its juz tong ren bu tong ming..
but i tink the most impt ting is tt despite the fact that life is being hard on him, he still wans the bez for me..
though the situation does not allow, but he still wants to gimme ex ex prez..
though i alwiz scold him n say no nid..
but.. thankew for being nice to me..
i shall b content..
=)
he's nice to me..


+ [A]nGe| @ 16:43

i feel so thankful tt the-person-up-there made sure of my bro's safety..
he n his wife were brought home juz 2 days b4 the horrible horrible earthquake happened..
thank you so much.. for sparing us the anxiety we'll experience if he's not hm..

i'm so glad my family's safe n sound..
n tt all is well..
n i dun hafta da bao any modules!!
n i wana work hard at my studies..

but i feel so sandwiched in btw..
i wana help, but sometimes i juz feel so disheartened..
i dun wana c tis kind of situation..
n i wana clear up the misunderstandings..
but it is not up to me to do it.. haiz..

JY!!!! i noe u're reading!!
I LURVE U!!!!
haha n cerise.. i lurve u too.. =)
n irene.. n loo.. n all my close close frens..
u noe hu r u..
i lurve all of u!!!!
*muacks!!*


+ [A]nGe| @ 22:58

thank God my bro's back frm Phuket oredi..
cuz i heard abt the earthquake tt affected Phuket as well!!! OMG..
i'm so glad his trip ended on fri n he's back in sg safe n sound..

went clementi for arcade today!!!
fun fun fun!!!
n cheap cheap cheap!!!!
*oops*
but i thoroughly enjoyed myself!!!!

n i dun understand how some ppl have so bad manners..
i'm so glad u're not my fren..
muahaha..
cuz my frens hv beta manners den u!!!!
*vomits*
n like i said..
tis is MY blog..
if u dun like it, JTB..
n.. lemme tell u a secret..
i dun like u too!!!!! hahahahaha
*bleah*


+ [A]nGe| @ 22:51

i noe tt my eldest kor is married too..
but it juz feels so diff to hv a person whom i've lived wif for all my 19 yrs move away n setting up his own family..

OF CUZ I'M HAPPI FOR HIM!!!!
but its juz so weird..
i noe tis sounds farnie..
but i miss my kor..
i miss having him ard in the family..
i miss not being able to call him n "kor!! the printer's spoilt!!"
n he will tell me "i repair when i reach home"
its so weird!!!!

urgh.. *tears r welling up agn*
irritating..

i reali reali miss my kor..
i noe this sounds reali mushy..
so ppl, dun tk ur loved 1s for granted..

n i wish my kor a happi happi honeymoon!!!!
he jus flew off today, back on fri..

kor ar, i wish u a happi marriage lehz.. =)
cuz i reali luv u n er-sao..
okie.. tis is mushy i noe..

but.. tis is MY blog.. haha

the banquet was okie..
n both my uncles say i look veh pretty.. *grinz*
haha my eldest uncle say i look veh diff (its a complimen)
n while i was toking to alvin(my cousin), his dad say he was looking n c hu's tt mei nu toking to his son.. haha!!!!
he's farnie..
but, thx for the compliments..
hee..
tt onli goes to show..
mei you chou nu ren, zhi you lan3 nu ren..
i'm a lazy gal..
i noe.. =)

i'm looking forward to my bro's return..


+ [A]nGe| @ 22:31

today muz b fri thirteen la..
so many bad tings happening today..

loo u relax 1st kk?
thou i noe its reali hard..
there muz b a way out la..
dun despair 1st kk??
if u nid help juz tel me..

n..
so envious of ppl hu can travel to places all over the world..
i dun hv tt kind of freedom n tt kind of $$..
the last time i went overseas was..
sec3?? ya i tink so..
wif swiss SJ..
haiz.. i miss the days when i'm overseas, away frm home, away frm family..
away frm problems..
i hate life nowadays..
n i detest staying @ home now..
sickening..

*snaps back to reality*


+ [A]nGe| @ 17:19

lets c.. tis shld b my.. 6th template..
wheE!! tis is so nice!!!!
sry irene.. i noe i asked u help me design template.. i promise i will use it!!!
aft tis okie??
*sry sry*
i lurve tis template..
though its pinky n purpley
i like it..
muz b the liu xing hua yuan mood i'm in..
lalalalala~~
i lurve daoming si!!
i lurve jerry yan!!!!!


+ [A]nGe| @ 15:35

"如果失去了你
我连呼吸的勇气都没有"

这句话
让我的心跳
都停了一下
好感动



+ [A]nGe| @ 13:13

西方曾经有位哲人说：

女人啊
华丽的金钻 闪耀的珠光
为你赢得了女皇般虚妄的想像
岂知你的周遭
只剩下势利的毒
傲慢的香
撩人也杀人的芬芳

女人啊
当你再度向财富致敬
向名利欢呼
向权力高举臂膀
请不必寻问那只曾经歌咏的画眉
它已经不知飞向何方
因为它的嗓音已经干枯暗哑
为了真实、尊容
和洁净灵魂的灭亡



+ [A]nGe| @ 12:55

i dreamt abt him the whole nite... -_-
cuz i watch liu xing hua yuan b4 i slp laz nite..
i cried when he cried..
so sad~~~

我喜欢你
喜欢迷恋得
连我自己都觉得莫名其妙

我并没有让自己再陷进去
我从来都没有把自己拔出来


+ [A]nGe| @ 10:35

my eyes r suffering..
too much PC, too much reading, n of cuz!! too much TV.. tts wat i've been doing most of the time..
anithing but exercise, which is the ting i nid most now..

n my awfully sinful chocolate mud cheesecake turned out fabulous!!!!
muahahaha.. so happi!! its veh nice!!!! but its so chocolatey, i feel so bad eating it..
therefore, i cut it up into veh small pieces.. so i'll eat juz a lil at a time.. haha

cerise ar!! i reali wana mit up wif u all on wed for K lo.. but 2 @ cine i reali cnt lahz.. paiseh lehz.. driving ends @ 2.. sry arhz.. reali wana mit up wif u soon..
kk i try arrange liaoz den tell u kk??

bad mood juz now..
now beta le

anyways, my daoming si's gonna cheer me up..
my liu xing hua yuan!!!
aft irene comes back frm bathing i'm gonna go get my daily dosage liaoz..
but i'm so sad..
my liu xing hua yuan's coming to an end..
hopefully i gt the series 2 ASAP..

PS!!!!! help me!!!! i'm dying frm addiction!!!!
help me borrow the series 2 kk?? i'll meet u real soon!!!!
muahahahahahaha..

my jerry yan...
-drools-
oops tts so not shu nu..
daoming si hui bu xi huan de...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
i guess u ppl can c tt i've developed a psychological n physical dependence on him...
BEWARE!!! daoming si is highly addictive..
so is jerry yan!!!!!!!


+ [A]nGe| @ 22:24

juz called dear n he tell me he's playing Risk.. stunned.. ask him hu he's playing wif.. den i felt 'orh..'
haha nvm dun tink u guys'll noe wat i'm talking abt..

went rene's hse bake cookies (rene) n cheesecake (me!!)
haha fun!!
yiyi tell irene her mixture smell like cheesecake oredi.. when irene's actually baking cookie.. den yiyi say:"juz now tt 1 not cookie meh??"
juz now tt 1 is cheesecake mixture lahz!!! -_-""

n yiyi juz msg me on MSN n ask me y we nv try the cheesecake..
so cute!! i tink is she wan to eat ba..
n she said:"ya" she wans to eat la!!
so i told her the cake is not ready yet mahz..
den she ask me:"cake not ready den y u all leave it in the open? will hv dust den the cake will b contaminated"
rene.. she inherited ur lameness..... -_-"

i tink my cheesecake look veh nice.. but duno can eat anot.. i haven try yet lo..
try tml la.. mabbe it'll suck.. haha!!
tuition tml.. -pengz- i kinda hate the tuition oredi..

n i tink the world is so small!!!!!! link link link den link to duno where liaoz..
n to the person hu juz called me!! u noe hu u r la huh.. promise to kip ur secret la..
n ar.. u dun so ard telling ppl wat i tell u oso okie..
-beaH-

read my may entries agn..
realised how i've changed.. juz 7 mths agn i'm so thankful for everything tt happens ard me.. hmz i muz find back tt feeling.. i wana b nice to everybody n i wana b happi everyday!!!! =)
-sMiles-

n i'm so sad today..
i haven had my daily dosage of liu xing hua yuan..
did i mention i'm addicted??
to jerry yan!!!!
183 183 183 183..
haha dear dear ar.. i'm juz kidding lahz!!!
ren muz hv meng xiang wat..


+ [A]nGe| @ 22:47

i juz went to cerise's blog.. haha n i was so amused!! see through all ur sarcasm.. so cool!! way to go, man!! haha..

watching liu xing hua yuan nowdays.. my ideal bf is juz dao ming si.. haha i lurve him!!!!
oh no no.. if can hv yan chengxu will b bez..
i'm crazy liaoz..

anyways, i wana change my template liaoz..
haha..


+ [A]nGe| @ 10:47

x'mas is coming agn!!!! haha so happi!! such a joyous season.. n i wana thank zhihao for the wonderful early x'mas gift u prepared for the 2 of us.. its reali lovely n so nice of u.. =)

hee n i wana say congrats to JY!!!! hee though i dun tink she'll read my blog lahz.. but gal.. i feel reali honoured!!! haha i luv u!!!!

n i'm so in luv wif jerry.. he rulez!!!!
if u dun like him, juz too bad.. u duno wat u're missing out.. haha

n there's a performance tml at IMM..

n i saw kaixiang today.. at kim's platoon farewell dinner.. eh they're splitting up liaoz.. so kexi.. but anyways, i feel kexi for the both of them.. no matter wat reason it is, i juz feel kexi for them.. but i hope they've found the happiness tt belongs to them..

it seems lyk a lot of long-time couples r breaking up..
n it seems like quite a number of my frens r getting attached.. well i'm juz veh happi for them lo..
i hope tt every1 finds the happiness tt belongs to them..
stay happi, ppl..

btw, i fell down today.. =/ no bruises tis time round.. but i've gt a abrasion on my elbow.. sianz half lahz.. quite painful juz now.. now beta le.. =)

looking forward to tml!! n mon, tues, wed....
i juz lov everyday!! kor's wedding's coming.. aft tt i've gotta work for 2 days.. followed by x'mas.. kim's chalet.. den new yr!! aft which sch's gonna start le.. 6 weeks passed juz lidat.. but i enjoyed myself n tts wat matters la.. haha..

btw, my er-sao passed me a SAJC 2003 yr bk.. cuz she saw my class foto.. its so qiao!! she worked for the company tt publish my yr bk!! haha.. luckily i dun hafta pay for the yr bk.. else i'll feel so wasted..

n i met up wif yang lao shi, SY n JY today.. nice nice feeling.. noe quite alot of tings tt happening in SA.. alot of changes.. tink aft SA shift to potong pasir i wun go back le.. no more feelings le..
hmz.. mabbe i'll find a few frens go back nez yr wof my SA uniform n tk foto.. haha!!!! i'm crazy lahz.. c how la har.. b4 SA changes beyond my comprehension, i nid to go n c c look look..


+ [A]nGe| @ 23:54

went to watch shutter today.. duno whether izit cuz irene oredi told me sum parts of it, it doesn't reali scare me le.. or izit cuz i watch too much horror liaoz?? immue le?? haha can even guess wats gonna happen nez liaoz.. anyways, i stil enjoyed it nonetheless.. haha its a nice show.. but the ending's somewhat similar to 1 of the shows tt i've watched b4.. hmz so.. its rather expected.. keke.. but.. i stil prefer horror over any other movie types!!!! horror rulez!!!

hey irene.. its a gd try la.. n i reali hope u can succeed.. cuz i din.. haha.. =) but.. i will b super understanding.. whenever possible la har..

meeting PS tml!!!!!!! so excited!!!!! haha haven seen her in ages liaoz.. i'm gonna mk it an attempt to mit her whenever poss.. cuz i reali luv her!!!!! haha.. it'll b gals time!!!!! wif al the chit-chatting n "arh!! jerry yan so shuai!!!!!" cuz i've gt my liu xing hua yuan VCD!!! haha too bad.. i like jerry yan now.. haha..

n today's performance was totally OFF.. i was so paiseh lor.. forgot all the lyrics by the time i went up.. i promise, i will sing a song tt i'm familiar wif nez time.. =/

ni saw huiling!!! the sec2 huiling (3 yrs ago she was sec 2) haha.. used to saying tt liaoz.. its so nice to c her aft so long!! n she juz told me sth n i'm super shock!!!! nvm.. haha she's my greatest fan!!! thx gal!! luv ya too!! =)

i wana ZZZ liaoz.. update agn another day..


+ [A]nGe| @ 23:23

when i'm bein discriminated against..
when ppl r biased against me..
when ppl lie to me..
when ppl dun tel me the truth..
when tings juz suddenly happen n i realise i've gt xtra tings to deal wif..
when tings dun happen the way i want it to b..
when ppl dun appreciate my opinion..
when ppl shout @ me when i dun tink its my fault..
when ppl dun understand me n tink i'm juz throwing my tantrum (as usual)
when ppl promise they'll change n kip tings frm me..
when i hv to mk decisions..
when i'm unhappi..
n lastly..
when my fren spains her ankle AGN!!!!!!!! hey.. tk care of urself lars!!


+ [A]nGe| @ 23:57

gt my driving test date liaoz.. hmz its lyk, in the midst of my exams..
BUT.. its towards the end of my exams liaoz.. so hopefully i wun hv any papers tt clash.. hmz dun tink so la, actually.. cuz i look thru the exam timetable le.. nth tt clashes wif wat i was hoping to tk.. provided i dun da bao my CH1101E.. which actually clashes..

hmz its nice to juz stay hm n read.. esp when its raining.. =)

n the date of my exams results release date is on 26th dec.. haha lemme enjoy my x'mas 1st.. den tts when the cruel reality sets in.. =(


+ [A]nGe| @ 13:47

been MIA for the past.. 3 days.. =x last nite concuss liaoz..

fri was painting my hse agn.. den at nite went to mit irene, loo, xiang n hanxu(xiang's sis) for dinner.. was planning to go hm @ ard 10 when suddenly they wana go xiang's hse overnight.. so i called mom n ask whether can anot lo.. i mean, aft all.. its xiang's hse.. so juz as expected, mom said ok.. so i went ahead!! watched mo huan chu fang, followed by Payday! wif xiang n rene.. haha kiddy game, but was quite enjoyable la.. n my progress was SO SLOOOOW, it's unbelievable.. haha xiang won in the end lo..

veh soon aft the game den xiang concuss liaoz.. so left me n rene.. n she was so nice to pei me chat wil ard 3+am b4 she concuss too.. haha cuz i wana call dearie ma.. so i waited til he knock off den i call.. chatted for awhile.. den ard 4am i ko too.. haha

woke up the next morning n ying ying yue yue heard rene on the fone wif her mom.. semi-conscious state.. aft i fully conscious @ 10am, i ask her n she said ya.. my mom called juz now.. haha damn farnie.. felt quite bad staying ard xiang's hse cuz she was wiping the floor.. so din wana stay ard n seem lyk da xiao jie lidat.. dearie called n say he's on the cab, on the way back to BP aft sending gay's camp pass to him @ seletar.. say he can cum over n gimme a ride home.. so i said ok lo.. hee so happi.. so nice of him to come here n fetch me.. den he waited awhile @ xiang's door when me n rene were busily trying to figure a way to go out using xiang's instructions.. when we realised the gate's not locked.. the padlock's there to bai mei 1.. hee gave rene a lift to plaza while me n dearie went for breakfast @ mac, den we walked me home (an attempt to digest the food n shed some fats)..

sat's another bz day!! reach home ard 12, went to bathe den sat down n watch liu xing yu til 2.. felt kinda tired, had to rest for awhile.. slept for ard 25 mins, had to pia down to BP for 02S81 class BBQ @ jiade's hse!!!!! haha so happi!! haven seen them in AGES.. as usual, i handled the food.. hmz tink the food very nice!! haha n finally i had a chance to tok to JY.. filled her in wif wats been gg on recently.. haven had a chance to hear her tok den kim came n find us cuz we were "in the toilet" for too long.. haha but we promised each other we'll hv another tok soon.. it was grt to c all of them la.. n qiyue!! dun bully the kids!!!!! haha.. tok fotos n i left ard 11.. reach home oredi 1130 liaos.. forgot to pay andy back.. realised tt aft i walked out of jiade's hse.. called himn he said can pay him another day.. i muz write it somewhere so i dun forget agn the next time i c him.. keke..

n den comes sun.. voices performance @ IMM n lot1!!! had to reach sch @ 1 for prac.. it was HILARIOUS.. jinghui was our entertainer of the day.. haha damn crappy lo!! it was fun overall la.. wif alvin, jinghui, violet, yanguo(miss victoria!!!!), eric, cheowlu(lulu!!!), huili n boon.. haha huili n boon r lyk parents bringing their kids ard.. lol.. machiam lyk excursion lidat.. "okie.. u all can go walk ard.. we mit 630 @ the stage door ltr" haha farnie larz.. SY saw me during the performance @ IMM juz now!!!! so paiseh!! but he said i was okie.. beta den the 1 aft me.. =x how cam it b?!!!! tts so impossible la.. thx SY.. i noe u're juz trying to an wei wo.. n jinghui's stil our ultimate entertainer la.. keke looking forward to the performance tis thurs @ OP.. will c violet, ruimin, eric, yanguo, jarrod blah blah blah.. hopefully it'll run smoothly as well.. haha mabbe i shld drop by OP @ on 30th to c their performace.. since i'm not gg for tt 1.. keke..

well tts lyk the summary of my 3 days.. damn hectic la.. no time for lunch n everything.. n i haven had lunch yet lo.. hmz i wana eat rice/noodles!! i haven had it for 2.5 days le.. other den laz nite.. haha so long entry.. =x hope i din bore u..


+ [A]nGe| @ 13:17

i'm in deeeeeeeeeeeeeeep s*** oredi..
i wonder y m i alwiz like tis??
lesson learnt: NV procrastinate..
BUT i alwiz do.. haiz.. how?????
anywayz i juz hope tt whoever-up-there can help me out of tis..
sianz..

anyways, taufik won!!!!!!!! cooL~!!! happi happi.. for a moment i was so afraid sly'd win.. ya he's gt a grt smile, a grt person hu connects wif the audience.. but i stil prefer taufik.. whoever is beta shld win.. n sg is smart!!! hmz anyways, they're both gd lahz.. juz tt taufik's voice is more powerful.. n i like powerful voice!! haha.. i hope olinda gets a contract too.. she deserves 1..

anyways i settled on my outfit le.. a tube dress.. n i wonder y m i alwiz wearing tube dress to impt functions?? when i obviously dun hv tt figure required???? hahaz i'm gg crazy as usual.. but the dress is nice!!! @ least i like lahz.. n not tt ex oso..

n, i dun like rich ppl too.. i dun like the way gals r spoilt by their rich bfs.. so wat if they're rich? haha n the richer they r the more i dun like them.. UNLESS they can prove to me tt they're not spoilt brats.. which i tink all rich kids r.. well they're alwiz pampered n looked aft wat.. they can juz go 'maria' n maids cum running aft them.. urgh..

ltr in the day.. i'm gonna b so dead.. n i hope i'll pull thru this..


+ [A]nGe| @ 01:50