haha finally i feel tt CNY is approaching!!
went chinatown today.. n did some CNY shopping wif parents..
well i already bought a pair of jeans and a skirt.. but somehow i don't feel like i've bought CNY clothings.. maybe cause they weren't what i really wanted.. but i also don't know what i want.. hmz dont need expensive clothes la.. haha nice can liaoz la.. so, anithing ba!!

n now my hse is so red!!! haha cause mom bought some display thingy.. so now my house is darn red.. -yeah yeah-

and, i wana say thx to a fren..
1 whom i tot din noe abt my blog..
but turns out that i was wrong!! well well.. paiseh arhz..

and also want to say sorry to him.. so sorry abt today.. i really dont mean it..

somehow i feel different abt things..
to zhihao: i know what you mean about my previous entry.. i really feel the same way..
hmz quite tired le..
but 1 last thing..

i want to say thx to PS and wu laoshi for giving me this chance to perform..
cause of that, i'm given the chance to go back to SA for this short period of time..
i really miss SA..

i used to mind not being invited to whatever chalets or gatherings..
i was so upset about it around 1 yr ago when i realised i was not invited and by what that person said.. when i know all about it..
but now, though i dont know whether izit deliberate or unintentional, i guess it no longer bothers me..
cause i dont give a damn about it anyways..
so why shld i be unhappy about it?? haha
i feel like i've grown up..
oh well.. i'll have to 1 of these days..

i really hope my parents will go for the performance..
they've nv seen me act b4..
even yang guang you miao 2003 is my bro n sis-in-law go 1..
but well.. i'm not going to force them or what la.. haha.. we'll see how tings go ba..
shld slp soon le..
tml stil nid to wake up @ 8..


+ [A]nGe| @ 22:31

duno wat to type for heading la.. sometimes i tink heading is reali quite fei..

haven been updating.. cuz was pissed wif the tagboard for slowing down the loading of my blog page.. so i was too lazy and pissed to update.. hence.. ya, MIA for very long..

i feel tt when a couple break up.. its worse if the girl tell the guy that he's really very nice, just that its just not meant to be.. i think he'll feel better if the girl tells him that she cant stand this and that..
at least there's something that he can change..
imagine if the girl tells him..
"you're really very nice to me.. its not your fault.. really.. its just me.. i feel that i'm not ready for a commitment.. i'm sorry.. i'm sure you'll find a better girl than me"
!!!!!! what can he do right? he cant change for the better, cause he's 'very nice already'
he don't even have a rival in love.. because there's none..
its more pathetic than having the girl tell you that she's fallen for another guy..
he cant even hate her..
she's 'just not ready'
well maybe she's lying la.. but, who knows???

i know i know..
i think too much le..

read salan's blog..
ya there's really no right or wrong..
even if the guy's not in NS, there's no guarantee that the r/s won't change..
so girls out there with a bf in NS,
NS is a lousy reason for breakup okie??=)
"no time" is even a lousier reason..
i feel
if you really want a breakup, make sure its cause you don't love him..
cause thats the only reason y 2 person is together right??
cause you love him/her..
or maybe another reason you can give is that you love another guy more..
well then i got nothing to say le..
cause there's always this possibility what..
(or maybe the other reason is that you love another guy's money more than you love your current bf)
-oops-
well you know.. some women just love money..

hmz i'm so sarca today..
well, anyways..
i'm sian..
lots of things to do and lots of work piling up!!
rehearsals.. meetings.. lessons..
ARGH!!!!! i'm dying!!!!
i wan to bake..
haha my way to destress..

i think i've been really nice the whole week..
no tantrums..
but its been hard on a fren..
1 who don't read my blog (or even know of its existence)
so, no pt saying thx here..

but i want to tell another friend..
to always remember that whatever happens. you know that all of us love you and care for you..
if there's anything bugging you, just feel free to share with us..
been friends for... *counts with fingers and toes* ... going 12 years le..
you know you can trust us!!!
and you know we love you!!!
just relax if you're stressed..
or you can talk to me!! =)
i love you, you know..
-puke- its so mushy!!!!
but its true..

haiz.. bz bz bz..
any1 wants to watch performance??
$10 per tix..
DEFINITELY WORTH IT!!! haha
not worth it?? money is not refundable..

aiyax.. got to go sleep le la..
its late..
there's rehearsal tml..
-tired-


+ [A]nGe| @ 22:36

if 1 day i fall for another guy how??
hmz don't know what came over me, but i just suddenly thought of this..
there's no right or wrong in a r/s.. i have to agree with him on that statement..
a r/s can be so strong and yet so vulnerable at the same time..
the only thing that is constant is change..
crap, but so true at the same time..

when you see another girl do something you cannot accept, you despise her..
but when the same thing is happening to you, you can find all sorts of excuses for yourself..
and you realise that you are just as equally shallow as the person you despise..
and you realise.. that there's really no right or wrong..
okie.. i'm crapping..
trying to sound philosophical.. -yeah yeah-

went out wif loo, xiang n irene today..
well supposed to treat xiang, but i guess we're all broke today..
so put on hold 1st.. or maybe we'll buy her a bday present..
but it's always nice and fun to hang out with all of them..
i like them.. =)
hee i love them!! -oops-
i sound kind of psychotic..

by the way, xiang is still so LAME!!!!
i was frozen to death...
but i was revived..


+ [A]nGe| @ 23:00

i feel so cheated!! there was webcast for the econs lec that i went on thurs!!!!!! and made me catch a stupid cold!! i shldn't have went lahz!!! stupid lecturer.. boring boring lecture and make me waste 2 hrs of my precious life.. -grumbles grumbles-

i'm so angry!! i feel so cheated!! -sianz-

sch officially starts this week, like after so long!! thats the bad thing about NUS.. sch starts so late, i don't have the momentum to study..
but.. i never havthe momentum to study anyways!! -haha-

i still feel so cheated.. -grinds teeth-

i'm watching wo he jiang shi you ge yue hui 3!! haha so happi.. dearie borrowed it from camp!! but i have only finished watching the 1st 3 disc.. i still prefer the very 1st series.. this 2 series is TOO futuristic.. (is that the way to spell it?) ya anyway, its nice!! ma xiaoling is still so chio!! but i still think she looks nicer in the 1st series.. okie.. all in all i just prefer the 1st series.. =/

can't wait to complete watching the whole show!!

ppl r bz shopping for their new yr clothings, while i am not the least worried about it!! haha no need to buy new year clothings le la.. so many clothes to wear le.. well.. maybe just another pair of jeans.. -grinz- n a few more bottoms.. but i dun hv $!! sian..


+ [A]nGe| @ 22:56

i finally bought a printer!!!! the old 1's been giving me TONS of probs.. n was kinda tempted to buy tis particular canon printer cuz its cheap.. yups tts the most impt word.. n canon printer's ink is cheap too!! haha.. finally discussed wif my parents n consulted my bro, n den to sim lim yday!! =) walked ard sim lim b4 i found the cheapest 1 i can find!! i was quite shocked to noe tt they gimme such a big discount.. but dear told me.. dun ask y its so cheap.. ask whether they hv tis, tis, tis.. tts the art of buying tings.. =/ sry la i stupid ma.. hee

came home n was all ready to install the printer when i realise tt i dun hv the USB cable!!!! stupid stupid me.. din realise tt its not part of the box's contents.. haiz so now i'm looking ard for USB cable lo.. ltr c if daddy gg kor's hse den i can follow along n go JP look for it.. =) so excited!! finally gt a printer.. no nid to curse n swear everytime i print notes lo!! *whee!!*

n since i went sim lim, went si ma lu bai bai AGN.. hehe went there consecutively in 2 days..
been feeling quite sick nowadays..
wif my flu n everything.. haiz..
flu's not getting any beta.. but today's feeling slightly beta le..
hopefully it wun gt any worse..

i duno whether wat i'm doing is right or wrong..
sometimes i feel tt its become an obsession n its no longer healthy..
but, i reali duno wat i shld do..
i nid some support..
n i nid.. i duno..
haiz..



+ [A]nGe| @ 10:48

like i said, my timetable tis sem totally sux.. i duno y i so suay tis sem lo.. wateva i wan oso dun hv.. studies is bad.. *HAIZ*

skipped CS lec today.. or rather, i skipped the lec meeting..
tml will b pei-ing loo go si ma lu bai bai..
hopefully aft tt tings wil turn for the beta..
i dun wan to hv a sucky yr..
its onli the beginning!!!!!
*soBz*

n i dun like to buy textbooks..
y muz every module hv their own text??
n y muz they use diff text for every module??
its so ex!!!!!
*frowns*
n y muz i buy text every sem for every diff module????????


+ [A]nGe| @ 16:58

i officially declare tt i hate my timetable tis sem..
wat the!!!!!!!
i dun care whether CS1105 is indeed interesting.. i hate it.. it totally spoils my timetable!!!!!!
wah kaoz!!!


+ [A]nGe| @ 16:32

was attempting to view the breeze lecture presentation, which was super boring, though the contents looks interesting.. halfway through the beginning of the statistics portion of the lec when my fone rang.. looked @ the screen n saw tt its a pte number.. picked up the call, half expecting it to b the same guy tt called last nite @ 2321 hr, disturbing my slp..

"hello" (wif a sophisticated tone)

"wei? jo ar.."

ITS JOANNA!!!!! haha tt stupid b***h.. its alwiz nice to receive her call!! kinda miss her liaoz.. keke.. she alwiz calls me @ the most unexpected hrs..
well she asked if i'm gg to a certain person's bday party, which is held @ a pub.. well any other times n i'll b quite offended y m i not invited.. but tis time, haha, dun invite me?? all the beta!! i dun wana go anyway.. dun even hafta tink of excuses y i'm not gg.. *oops* m i too mean? keke told jo it shld b held @ the pub she's working @ la.. but the pt is.. its not a big deal wat!! its juz the 20th bday.. not as if its the 21st liaoz.. some ppl juz like to act high class.. (note the keyword here is act)

people who are not polite and have no basic manners can never belong to the upper end..
*oops* okie i am being pretty mean here..
i shall be nice..
i'm glad she din invite me.. haha
n so is wenli..

but anyways, i'm glad jo called..
i miss her.. n her laughter..
well gal.. muz mit up soon okie??
*muacks!!* (i return ur kiss to u!)

decided to go back to the lecture presentation after hanging up the fone.. looked at the time and the duration of the presentation (which is slightly less than 30 mins), i decided to go slp.. i stil have a 10am class tml..
-yAwnX-

gd nite..


+ [A]nGe| @ 23:04

my timetable is so sucky!! my gosh!!! i cant believe it man.. it like last sem lo!! onli tt its worse!!!!!! arh!!!! help..
i haven view my CS lec's webcast yet.. hmz mabbe i shld consider start skipping my CS lec.. since its so useless!! omg.. i cant believe it..


+ [A]nGe| @ 22:04

first of all, i wana thank my bro who changed his plans @ the very last min to drop by home to help me out wif the stupid n irritating modem.. if not for his selfless decision (made wif my sweetest sis-in-law), i wld not b blogging here rite now..
THANKEW!!!!

okie enuff crap.. been out for the past 4 days!! very tired!! spent alot of $ as well... =/

went to watch 'meet the fockers' on thurs.. well as promised, there is ALOT of sexual humour.. but i muz admit tt i dun reali understand alot of it..
*trying to act innocent*
i'm not!!!! alright, alright.. i'm juz slow tts all!! but there're some parts i reali reali dun understand..
dun understand + slow in catching the joke = kana scolded for being slow

fri went arcade n played pool..
hmm i tink i mentioned tt oredi

sat went chinatown to watch the lighting ceremony! walked to n fro chinatown til my legs reali veh suan.. n i was stucked in human jam!!!! n i can sense how impatient n kiasu singaporeans can b.. once there's a teeny weeny space in the jam, they start SQUEEEEEEEEZING through tt small lil space.. dun they realise tt they'll b able to move eventually.. y dun they hv a lil bit more patience n gif themselves n others more space?? tt way all of us will feel much more comfy wat.. rite?!! me n dearie lost balance a few times while stuck in the jam cuz ppl r pushing us.. n i was almost knocked down when ppl "rush" past us.. when apparantly there's onli a small lil space..

okie out of pt.. the firecrackers n fireworks was reali grt!! n the yong tau foo i had was grt too!!! *thx dearie for buying the food for me while i was seated comfortably at the table waiting for food to arrive*
n i muz reali admit tis..
i'm fat!!!!!!

anyways, went kbox today.. n i sang like there's no tml.. ehs tink dear oso sian diao liaoz.. say nex time my hse nid to hv a sound prove ktv room, but onli nid 1 ktv disc.. cuz i kip singing the same song.. *oops* i like tt song ma.. n since there's onli the 2 of us, mite as well exploit tt chance rite?? hee *paiseh lahz*

n i tink tt ppl's bf alwiz behave like me.. which i dun tink is a gd ting.. cuz the gfs r my frens.. haha i'm a unreasonable gf.. i noe..
but tinking on the bright side, i noe y the bf wil tink n act tis way.. n hopefully i can provide useful help..
note the keyword here is "useful"

i haven had a chance to go si ma lu bai bai.. unforseen circumstances on sat.. unable to mk it.. sianz.. hopefully the coming sat i can go..

okie tis is a veh long entry oredi.. tml stil hv driving n tuition.. muz slp early..
but i'm not sleepy..
*tok crap*

signs off..


+ [A]nGe| @ 22:48

ショエンリン
syo-e-n-rin (e is read like air) <== in irene's exact words

haha my name in japanese! irene tell me 1..
if its wrong, pls leave a tag..
n i'll tell irene to brush up on her japanese..
haha kidding..

thx irene!!!! -muacks-


+ [A]nGe| @ 22:46

i suspect there's a mosquitoe in my hse.. n it's biting me!!!! cuz my legs r feeling so itchy all over!!!! yucks!!!! disgusting..
okie tt does it!! i'm gonna kill this ting tts causing my itchiness!!!

well anyways, i went for arcade n pool today!!!! i mean, the table game, pool..
n i won 2 games!!! haha n i was so qian bian.. there's tis game tt juz started n i dun like the way the game started, so i gan cui hit the black ball in on my turn!! haha i lost la, but the game's restarted.. dearie was SHOCKED!! when i did tt.. when he realised wat i was doin n tt i did it purposely, he was going.. "zheeeeeeeen shi qian bian" -gleeful- oops!! did i do sth??

haha okie.. cant update le.. gotta chat on the fone..

btw, alot of ppl changed their blogskin nowadays..
but i stil like mine!!
tink they wana change it in the new yr.. new tings in the new yr..


+ [A]nGe| @ 22:24

i noe u may tink tt i'm reali crazy..
but if we do end up in diff paths 1 day, u muz go aft her okie??
i juz feel so kexi.. aft wat u told me.. tings mite've turned out differently if u had followed wat u reali want..

i feel so cranky recently.. alot of tings juz came back to me suddenly..

我相信幸福是要靠自己去争取的。可能你会觉得我疯了，才会说出那种话。
我不想在生命里留下任何遗憾。
一个人的生命太短了，不应该再有任何遗憾。会后悔的。

如果可以重来一次，不知道我的人生会不会有什么不同？
我想，我一定会把很多事问清楚。
不要像现在这样。
为什么是这样的结局都不知道。
会有你告诉我的那么一天吗？

请你不要讨厌我。

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+ [A]nGe| @ 23:27

haha went irene's hse for baking session yday..
was tinking whether to bake choc or original cheesecake..
well decided on the original 1..
since its cheaper!! haha..
well n as irene has said.. the base is veh thick..
haha -accidents happen- i agree..
all cuz of tt certain some 1 lahz..
like to eat crust.. i dun care ar!! u'd beta finish all the crust.. haha
but the whole ting turns out okie la..
hmz nez time i bake..
less crust, double the serving of the filling..
haha.. as irene's mom said..
1st time bake onli..
it'll gt beta.. =)

n my modules r settled..
though i took some reali sucky modules, i hope tt they'll turn out juz fine..
n if nth goes wrong..
i shld hv a 3day week..
haha happi happi.. but the hrs r kinda canky.. =/
prays tt tings will go beta..
n i cant wait for dearie to book out!!
haha kinda miss him liaoz..
tho he alwiz gimme lotsa prob.. -grinz-
like the cheesecake.. *oops!!*

n loo ar..
dun tink so much la..
or rather, dun gif urself so much prob la..
u'll realise some day tt u're reali tinking too much..
hee i luv u!! haha

okie i'm pretty much in a jovial mood..
which is a gd ting..
n i wana go chinatown tis sat for the CNY lighting ceremony!!
any1 wana go?
n bugis!! hmz lotsa tings to do..


+ [A]nGe| @ 11:02

got tis from shelia's blog..
n i start to wonder whether tis is the onli ans they hv.. haha

You Are the Girl Next Door! You're caring, warm, and the girl that nice guys want to marry.Uncomplicated and simple, you've got an easy going attitude guys love.But this doesn't mean you're dull - far from it!You're a great conversationalist, and you're an expert at living the good life. What Kind of Girl Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance

+ [A]nGe| @ 10:57

wad a girl really wants is when she had a "nightmare" in the middle of the night and woke up sweating and scared, and there is a man on the other side of the handphone who can respond immediately, whether it is 3am or 3pm and whether he is in town or abroad. wad a girl really wants is a man who would quietly slip off to buy her medicine when she causally said that she had forgotten to take her medication one morning.

i took tis from rochelle's blog.. n i tink its so true..
ROCHELLE!!!!! u n markie r tgt?!!!!!! i din noe!! haha..
anyways, i'm happi for the 2 of u..
yupz.. tis is the season of luv..
n i'm glad to say tt i've found tis person who is shooo sweet to me..
tho he may not wake up @ 3am when i cal him aft a nightmare..
or mabbe he wun buy med for me..
but he will force me to go c doc (which i will rather kill myself den do it!!!)
n he will respond 1st ting tml if he sees my msg tt i've juz had a nightmare..
thx deariE..


+ [A]nGe| @ 13:17

settled 4/5 of my modules..
n i din manage to gt PL2131.. which is quite an impt module.. sickening..
n i'm taking bahasa indonesia!! haha.. i noe it sounds weird..
brennie tried to psycho me to tk japanese lang.. but the interest is not there..
IRENE!! u're taking japanese lang ar?! aiya i shld've taken oso la.. den we can prac tgt.. haha
-kidding-
anyways, me, brennie n cerise r taking tgt..
me n brennie were cursing the sch for not offering canto as one of the languages..
-kidding agn-
alright.. look on the bright side gal..
if u manage to gt all ur desired slots..
i've a 3 day week AGN~!!!! haha
happi happi..
but i hope the modules aren't as sucky as i tot they will b..
haha..
n, today's driving sux..
i almost murdered my instructor n killed myself..
i seriously doubt tt i can pass my driving..
if i dun injure myself in the process 1st..
-sian diaox-


+ [A]nGe| @ 22:22

i have a bad feeling tt 2005 is gonna b a bad yr for me..
i wonder y it seems like gd tings dun happen to me??


+ [A]nGe| @ 01:40

i juz read the blogs of S56 peeps who went for the chalet..
i muz say tt i'm stil veh happi i went for it..
n i nv regretted every min of it.. i rem telling dearie last last yr(2003) tt i wana go for the chalet agn if they do organise.. n as i promised, i went for it agn last yr(2004)..
now i wana say it agn..
if u guys do organise another chalet, i stil wana go!! so juz go ahead n count me in!!!

was in such a happi mood until i rem a sms received tis afternoon..
n to tt person..
i'm veh disappointed tt ur trust in me is so little..
if u dun feel safe abt telling me tings, its perfectly okie wif me..
i din ask cuz i'm kpo n wana noe so tt i hv sth to gossip abt..
i ask cuz i'm concerned..
if u feel tt u dun wana tell me, its alright wif me..
u dun even hafta tell me anithing..
if u wana turn to me for words of comfort but dun wana tel me tings, its okie too..
but pls dun say tings u said cuz it hurts..

shelia mentioned tt during the walk fr changi v back to downtown, they chatted.. n her understanding of him is deeper now..
yupz thru tis chalet, i not onli enjoyed myself..
i noe more abt dearie too..
n i reali enjoyed the walk back to chalet.. n the walk from chalet to pasir ris park.. where we chatted..
i oso rediscover the joy of hanging ard wif him..
sry i've been so bz previously, dear..
i promise i'll spare more time for u..
luv ya lots!!! =)

btw, i saw jeffrey yee zheng yi today!!
n loo saw RZ..
farnie..


+ [A]nGe| @ 20:54

my dearie..
all the wonderful dearies who went for the S56 chalet..
all the fun n laughter we had..

though there was a qi li xiang curse.. (as i told dearie)
but we had lotsa laughter n fun tgt..
n it felt like a family..
though i'm not part of the class, they made me feel reali comfy..
thx to shelia, salan, yivon n siwei..
u're sweeties..
i even miss juz watching them play PS2.. haha
n laffing at the way we all drive.. (midnight club!!)
n the mahjong session..
n the ass hole daidee session..
n the KTV session..
n the walk from changi V back to downtown.. (though it took us close to 2hrs, with an optimistic estimation of 8-9km)
n the search for trans (suggested by shelia n highly seconded by me!!)
n the supper at changi V..
n the dinner at pizza hut on day1..
n all the childish tings zongfu does!!!!
even when we're juz slacking ard..
i miss every single second during the chalet..

i miss everybody...
i'm so glad i went for it n stayed throughout..
though i onli planned on staying for 1 nite initially..
n i'm glad tt everywhere i went n everything i do,
there's alwiz dearie wif me..
i'm so thankful i've u wif me..
=)
miss ya!!!
*hurry up call me la!!!*


+ [A]nGe| @ 21:36

haha for the 2nd time in my life, i counted down to a new yr!!!!
in the downtown east chalet rm, in front of the TV watching them play PS2..
haha yupz me was @ chalet.. wif 02S56..
well it wasn't my class..
but i muz admit tt i totally enjoyed myself..
cuz they're real fun company!!!
well to S56 peeps..
i din say tis cuz i noe u'll read my blog..
ITS TRUE!!!!!

though the way home aft the chalet totally sux.. -_-"



+ [A]nGe| @ 17:59