haven updated for a week..
came online n went offline.. lots of things tt i wana say.. but ultimately i still went back to my own diary..
lots of things have happened recently..
felt damn lousy...
its juz like wat happens is my fault..
felt that bad things always happen bacause of ME..
n no matter how some1 tells me its not, i juz feel so..
n i feel like a bad bad BAD gf..
this is not gd enuff.. tt is not gd enuff..
i noe tts not wat he's trying to say, but i juz feel like i'm being compared to..
i'm so envious of A*******
tts wat u said tt time..
n tt affected me alot..
hence when u said wat u said yday, i sorta snapped..
yup, snapped..
felt like a rubber band, stretched to its limits..
wat can i do?!!!
n yes.. now we have a pact..
if things still don't work out, i guess tts wat we will have to do..
u're rite..
things r so bad, i feel i'm suffocating..

to cerise: u dun nid to have alot of frens.. as long as u noe tt the few u've made in SA in truly worth it, then i think its enuff.. u noe tt ultimately, at the end of the day, u still have us. if all else fails, i'll always be ur best fren.. =) i love u!!!!

+ [A]nGe| @ 09:38